-meant to be posted on the 5/8

it's always so coincidental that im listening to josh groban's you raise me up when im blogging(: i suppose it's just a reminder about what my family has done for me.

hah so here's my new skin. enables me to be able to see my tagboard on the new comp :) haha. indeeed, i am losing abit of my control over certain things.

my life's royally screwed. i dont know whether it's just the choices i made or what that triggers this thought in me. but indeed, im always wondering why im here, even living? why am i me? why cant i be leading someone else's life? why cant i just.. give up?
i know this isn't a thought i should hold, but oh well.

im really happy with my family and friends. im just unhappy with myself.. i get myself stuck in situations. maybe not obvious ones. but i just hate myself. i hate my attitude. i dont know.. this really shows that there's some problem with me. ha-ha.

and i have no idea why i just said all those.. but all right, enough about that. :p

oh wait a minute. what did i do? hahahaaaaa. oh science centre in the morning. hah the playing fields are cool. on glass table somemore :x and 'dear' maddie's robot kept breaking once i got down the platform :p good try anywayy :D hahaaaa. but it was quite fun. with sherri, maddie, marian, yixin, chantal and ting yan. they were the 'more serious and focused' juniors x) haha and yes candy. one tradition we cannot break or whatever the word is =p :
CANDY! :p
sherri's favourite righttt. hehs.
then after that her mum/dad gave me a lift home. and then i continued packing my room. then.. studied for math. haha. and then yesss. i went out with my grandma(: to exchange the ND hang ten shirts for smaller sizes. at lot 1. hahh then ate dinner. yong tau foo :D yeah that was about it. got home and played maple for awhile :p slept abt 12 plus? yeah around there. and yes i regret not following my dad to FOP instead. he said it was very niceeee. anyway, i shall wait till next year. hahas.


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wasn't needed to be here ;)

lalaalaa.
heyy guys(:

(x it's been 3 days -dramatic expression on face-
:o i've been doing work actually
hahahhaha.

school's been fine.
and lalala.
swimming pe is bad.
=)

okayy time for bio.
gotta go.
post again next time x)

god bless.
:D

rawr.
im very upset with myself now.
im so careless:( as my dad says.
i left my pencil case in the home ec room.
1-my new thumbdrive-this calls for a scolding i know.
2-my pens to do hw.

ah well i'll just make do with whatever i have.
+ must pack room tonight without fail.
booooo. but on my list now

LA
bio-cells ws
math ws (time and proportion)
art-i gotta finish drawing this thing. a pass'd bee fineeee :(

okayyyy. today got dental check lol
it was so fun chatting with the rest while waiting.
gahh im still sad. abt the thumb drive being left in the room ><
the new comp's here. it was free from singnet anyway.
hahaha. so i was supposed to xfer things werent i. but now no thumb drive:(

today lao shi didnt come. but no chinese lessons anyway
wonder how she is.
that reminds me. gotta do chinese too.
aiyah maybe i'll give up packing my room today :p

just looking at the corridor outside class makes me sad.
it really bring back memories. when we watched finale from there.. and everything.
im missing anything and everything. even walking through the concourse or eating in the canteen, sitting on the same tables we did for dinner, seeing the cast of the musical. boo
everything just reminds me of the show :( and somemore. why did sze lin have to donate the macs in the lab or whatever she did;) but her name's out there. just going to the staff room from class i see it.
although yes there's another musical in 2 years' time, it's not gonna be like this one anymore.
got a feeling it wouldnt be a walk-ard thing.. haha.

ohwell. time to shower and get changed.
then do hw.
then eat dinner maybe
then lol i have no idea.
:p

god bless(:
gii.