helllllooo:D

so, yesterday i was just saying how i wanted to go to PS? yeah, and i did today together with my grandma. went to OG at orchard point, centrepoint, taka & heeren as well. tiring, yet productive i guess. my grandma got whatever she wanted, and i got that pair of converse double tongue shoe i've been eyeing for awhile. hahaha. yeah, i guess that was it, my day.

oh yes, met aly at taka. how coincidental. :D right aly? you cut your hair (and i know your hair is 'none of your business' ;p)

okay, nothing much to talk about anyway. gotta start doing homework tomorrow. torturous;

ah just as i was about to publish this post, yann ting has requested me (kindly, for that matter, or i wouldn't have cared more, i think :x) to do the quiz she posted on her blog, so i shall.

# 1; single, taken or crushing? singlular-.- singlish. SINGLE LAH. (yeah it goes,doesn't it?)
# 2; are you happy with your life? tough question. what would you do, if i said i'm not? you'll be happy right? hah, unfortunately, i have God with me, so yeah i'm happy :)
# 3; when you've met the right person, will you fall in love with him/her fast? first, tell me why these kind of questions? secondly, as a response to the question, no comments.
# 4; have you ever had your heart broken? sure i think.
# 5; do you believe that in some circumstances when cheating love is acceptable? some circumstances? first define what the some are. i personally feel that cheating someone seriously sucks, only makes the person heartbroken.the feeling can make you suicidal.
# 6; will you ever take someone back if he/she cheated on you? almost the same as the above question? i doubt i will. i would have let go, if it ever happened to me.
# 7; have you ever talked about marriage with another person before? nah. it's good enough knowing that my grandparents have been together for 43 years:D
# 8; do you want children? people who know me well, all know i love kids. ;p right petra? my dad knows it well deep in his heart too, and so do my grandparents. :x
# 9; how many? i'm only 13.just let nature take its course. :D
# 10; would you consider an adoption? why not? those must be abandoned kids..? horrible parents ;( i'll treat whoever that kid it as my own :)
# 11; if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let him/her know your feelings? it doesn't really apply to me, since no one likes me. yeah.
# 12; do you enjoy getting into a relationship? it's bad at a young age, as all adults say. 'jiang hai shi lao de la' ;)
# 13; be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex have done before? ...
# 14; do you believe in first love? i guess, though there wouldn't be a good outcome, that's for sure.
# 15; you believe that you can change someone? yeah sure, with God's help i can (: it'll be my pleasure, to help to change someone for the better :)
# 16; are you romantic? i doubt. i'm so cold towards people i think.
# 17; if you could get married anywhere, where would you want it to be? hah, i haven't exactly thought about this, but i think it doesn't really matter, because you get married when you are happy & comfortable with your partner, so why does location matter then?
# 18; do you easily give up in fighting? of course. heard of taking a step back? unless i really can't control myself that is. life will definitely be better, if you live it happily. you can't fight happily can you? or perhaps the question's asking the wrong person ie me.
# 19; have you ever wished that you could have someone but messed it up? hah, i mess anything up.
# 20; do you have feelings for someone right now? of course lah. i LOVE GOD!and my family members.. and my friends. though i mentioned i'm cold towards people, i still have feelings. i'm a human after all. i'm not inhuman like some guys(or girls, though hardly) in drama serials. haha.
# 21; have you ever broken a heart? i think so. i apologise for that.
# 22; if one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you love, what would you do? what more can i do than giving the guy up? i'll do anything, for a true, best friend. :)
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now, you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blog.
write down their names in the list below. tag them in their blog to let them know.
(i deleted this redundant, stupid part away, which had words like 'DUN' in it. i edited a few questions too, 'but' became 'bud' ;x)

must it really be 5? anyone who wants to do this lah:D
the first few people (with blogs) who come to my mind would be sherri, shina & julia though, but i guess sherri & shina wouldn't find it entertaining at all. and i don't want julia to do this, so haha. just go ahead & do it.

it ain't interesting doing these quizzes at all.gah.
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"When my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I." Psalm 61:2

When troubles come, we can cry, "Lord, hear me! Lord, lead me."
Our storms can become a time of victory as we let Him lift us up to the Rock that is above all storms, our Rock of Safety, Jesus Christ.
So, just leave everything in God's hands, for He'll never abandon you.

cheeeeers!:D

Fly Away - Corrinne May

it's time i change to another blogskin, i guess. i'll make an attempt of my own.
first gotta get others' done first.

i'm indeed wasting precious time away like this, on the comp and all.

i guess i better get down to work already.

:D hee, watched deathnote yesterday. imo, it wasn't exactly a very good show. it was just all about Light killing people with the deathnote. deathnote 2 will definitely be more thrilling, so i guess i'll go for that.

uncle kiat said i should watch inconvenient truth, a presentation by al gore. it's about global warming if i'm not wrong. anyone interested? haven't been to PS in a long time, and i don't feel like going alone either :)

okay, i shall take my leave. and do whatever i should ie. loading in all my photoshop brushes over again, somehow the tons i loaded previously got erased ;(

yeps, take care & happy hols.
to those still having school/with holidays just over not long ago *coughcough*, enjoy school to whatever extent you can :D because being at school is definitely more meaningful than rotting at home ;D

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"Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think anything as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God." 2 Corinthians 3:5

Through the years God has used the weak things to confound the wise. He has used those with no ability to confound the mighty.

lovelove<3



p.s. anyone has wake me up when september ends by green day? if you do please pm me on msn. thankssss

just awhile ago, i was standing by the window downstairs, with my grandpa..
just looking at the scenery.. the birds..
there were many birds; big and small :)
and i was thinking.. how the lives of birds are so good.. so carefree.. just flying high in the sky, which definitely reminded me about the poem we had for LA3 EOY, a caged bird in springtime. it's ironic how spring is such a.. beautiful time of the year.. with flowers blossoming, everything. but just like the bird, i feel so trapped, controlled. i don't mind.. but sometimes i wonder why i was born.. i wished i was never here. not a person, not a living thing at all. i wouldn't have mind being a wooden table i'm laying my hands on now though. at least i'll be more useful.

i still have to pack my room. i'm getting lazier by day. at least i managed to get the files & dividers i need from popular this afternoon.

that reminds me.. my dad and i were walking back from BTP and he was carrying two plastic POPULAR, for that matter, bags, and i wanted to share the winter melon tea i bought previously at coney cafe with him, so i was kinda shoving it to him, and of course he didn't have any free hands right?
this conversation, sure evokes laughter in me:

dad: wait lah, i got no hands!
me: dad, i'm sure you have no hands yeah? NO HANDS?!
dad: yah, can't you see i'm carrying things!
me: haha, thanks for making me laugh. you have to say 'i have no free hand now', not 'no hands'. you do have hands! just no free hands.
dad: *laughs* oh yah horh, you're right.

heh, k i guess i'll continue clearing up my room (:
tomorrow, there's church again :D yay.

to all those having dinner soon, bon appetit :)
TAKE CARE & GOD BLESS!

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"Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given unto you." Matthew 6:33 (a verse that has been in my heart, since i was in kindergarten, together with John 3:16)

Seeking means more than looking for or even searching. It is seeking God and His kingdom as the prime objective with everything else in second place. God is the most important one in my life. No one else :)

LOTSOFLOVE<3

so will you remember me, even if you hate me to the core?

kill me

all i get is disappointment;

so for whatever i've done in the past months, was just to gain hatred?

currently: playing with blu-tack for some reason-.-

perhaps i'm in a better mood today :)

so yesterday was the last day of school.

seeing the p6s crying & hugging was.. a chore. well, maybe not. but i felt really bad. mirabelle & angela gave me a hug..and sure was it saddening. all i could say was 'don't worry. promise me i'll see you next year'. i don't know how they felt when i said that, but they seemed to have not much of confidence of getting back into mg, though i'm certain God will do the rest. so, all the best you guys! primary school life has officially ended, and it's time to move on now. (: you know you'll just do fine, k? ;D

so.. yeah end of secondary 1. is that fast or what.
and the number of regrets.. is horrendous. i don't know why i didn't learn from last year, and still going last-minute-studying or whatever it's called. that sure resulted in my horrible results, though i wouldn't go on thinking about what has happened. maybe sherri's right, what's done is done. so what else can i do? make up for it? yeah sure, but to do that, i just have to start NOW.
i remember the first day of schoool. orientation.. seeing new faces & all. while checking the board outside the audi for our classes, i recall how much i was hoping, to be in the same class as sherri. it wouldn't have been difficult, since it was either 1T/G. unfortunately, that wasn't the case. i didn't know what would become of our friendship, but now i understand what it means to have a true best friend. thanks sherri, for everything you've done =) and through our individual problems and all.. there are many differences in us, i must say. firstly being the subjects we excel/are weaker in. as a matter of fact, the total opposite i must say. i don't know how thankful i am to God for letting me know someone like you, sherri. perhaps you only believe in God 20%, but yeah He does wonders (:
another group of people i want to thank. being 1G. though cliques are obvious, the class not being united & cohesive at times *coughcough*, i still like to thank you guys for giving me the chance of being a vice-chair. i haven't been doing much, i know. and sure abigail deserves more credit, but yeah. thankyou :D i know i used to hate whoever in the class, being prejudiced against whoever.. but not anymore. i guess time really changes your thinking/attitude towards things :) as for rida, i want to apologise on behalf of some if you've been treated badly (i mean i really know this) & have no sense of belonging in the class at all. sorry i couldn't help much, other than stopping 'them' from not teasing you for a short moment only. i hope it wouldn't be like this next year, because there are still 3 years to go. okay? i love you guys. and in this 2 months, i'm sure to miss being in school. ;D



last day of school today.
my mood?
i have no idea ;)

sheesh, don't tell me i'm getting back to my old self again.. when the happy holidays (i doubt it'll be) are here?

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what is the purpose of my life at this moment?.. i've always been questioning myself.. but i just can't seem to get an answer. my dad says it's to spread the gospel. perhaps that's the only thing i can do,
seeing how i'm most of the time unsuccessful in many other things i wished i was successful in.
i now truly understand the meaning of WISHFUL THINKING.





going to anisha's house soon to do preparation work for tomorrow's game stall.
(while the rest are going to the birdpark. wow. i haven't been there for ages (; )

yepp zai jian. :D

and..


let's talk about saturday, since i'm in a good mood.
so while waiting for the time of talladega nights to get near, we walked over to millenia walk from suntec and the first and only shop we patronised, candy empire, and i bought some candy :p hahaha. this was cute, though i'm not in love with hello kitty or sth x)


on the way back from millenia walk to suntec, spotted this cake at swensens, *squeals in excitement* it's POOH BEAR. hahahaa!


and.. just realised petra had this on her bag. so cool. :x


oh yes, had egg tart for breakfast today. it was yummy (:
and it was rectangular-shaped! instead of the usual round shape, because it was apparently squashed by other 2 tarts in the same box.


watched silk awhile ago at west mall. have to say it was a good show. more a sad storyline, than scary though, for those who thought otherwise. the message was brought across really well. it wasn't about the existence of ghosts, nor the power of hate, but the power of love & the bond between a mother & child. i liked it alot (: thanks dad :D

and he's.. finally lvl 100. roar. maybe finally's a wrong word to use. he's mad :p (today's opposite day, just take note of that - just in this case~)

GOOOOODNITE:D

suppose today was good i'm guessing.
can't say i'm too happy, can't say im depressed either *coughjiayhincough*

was expecting a C5/6 overall, but lol nah i didn't. :) not gonna reveal my actual result though. i just know i did fairly well, as sherri describe hers.

i better get down to doing whatever i wish to do, for the class and whoever.

mini fair's on wednesday. don't exactly know whether i'll enjoy myself, but haha, our game is retarded, for a purpose ;) give a buck, try your luck. i love that slogan, phrase whatever. so creative of anisha to think of that, isn't it?

(:

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"So let it grow, and don't try to squirm our of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete." James 1:4

The presence of trials in our lives, whether places, plans, or people, can be converted into strength and steadfastness of character as we commit them to the Holy Spirit. This growth is not the work of a moment. It is the work of a LIFETIME.

Heart's Desire
Lord, I look to You for everything I need - everyday.
Help me put my expectations to You.
Amen.
"May He give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed." Psalm 20:4

stay on the road - corrinne may

church was fine today.
so lina finally got back to church after a no. of weeks (:
and laura was fine through the whole service too.
so i guess today must be the best day of the week.

proven yeah? God is the only one who heals =)

good for me i guess. not feeling as bad as yesterday already.

well then, praise the Lord!

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"And he (Elijah) answered, Fear not: for they that be with us (our side) are more than they that be with them (other side)." 2 Kings 6:16

We need to let God open our eyes of faith, giving us spiritual vision. By faith our inner eyes can see God's provision for us. "FEAR NOT; they that be with You are more than they that be with them." We may not see our way out of our problems, but we can trust God to encircle us with His invisible host in the midst of it.

Prayer of the day


it's 12.33am now.
i have had no idea what my mood has been since God knows when.
i have never felt as bad as i have been this week for the longest of time. in fact, this must be the worst of the worst!
haven't realised what implications my actions had either.
i think it doesn't really matter since no one really cares.

all right then.
good night and good morning.

there's church tomorrow.
maybe it'll cheer me up.

when things are painful, all I can do is seek the Healer.

went to suntec with petra today.
talladega(sp) nights was amusing.

goodbye

no more long posts anymore. =)

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"Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer." Psalm 4:1

Regardless of our problems today, our hearts can be filled with God-given gladness that completely satisfies.

since I fear God so much, why am i acting this way?

staffroom RA was really gd.

thats all that was gd today.
gdnite

i feel like murdering someone. perhaps myself

the best choice there is?

yeah i'm sure.(:

whee. life rocks sucks.

and i lovehate it.

"be positive always."
and yeah i am being positive.

this is defined as optimistic pessimism.

that's my goal - shayne ward
been hearing it for the 8th time today. it's a really nice song. and i have no idea why it ain't cheering me up (:

today was a good day.

yeah one sentence.
good good day. you think it was yeah? i suck. life sucks, really.

and i thank God for it.

byeeee.

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"But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve,...but as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord." Joshua 24:20

Have you not chosen to serve Him? This challenge is not for tomorrow, next week, or next year; it is a present challenge - choose you this day. This challenge is a personal one, "but as for ME."
What has your response towards serving Him been? The choice is all in your hands.

God bless<3

cheng; i quoted that from my friend. yeah i guess different people have different points of view so yep. to me, it is lah. :)

sherri; hello sherri (: thanks. i'm just hoping to pass. it isn't that i'm not happy with what i've gotten, but more about me knowing, feeling guilty not studying harder. yeah. not really sure whether i wanna get out of SBC or not, but nah it doesn't really matter now.
alyssa's birthday? 17 dec. a long way to go. but i owe all my classmates presents, other than perhaps venezia & abigail. that was early this year. yeah sure. i hate complications. simplicity is better than.. anything. yeah all right, good for you. what?! why are you so fast at FF7. 4-5 parts left. all right. enjoy yourself then :D yeah i'm happy. hahaha. self-delusion.. a good thing sometimes, really. nah, no problem. spam all you want (: hmm, thanks once again. it's all right. i know you passed everything, so that matters more than anything :D take care then. till you finish FF7, i shall.. leave you alone to play. haha!

shan; why not? try to be happier k? life will only be good, if you lead a life of happiness! jiayou (:

"happiness is about living better; and living better is simply living simpler." (:
don't you think that's really true? at least that's what i feeel.
sometimes it feels no one understands, i don't even know why i do the things i do.

simplicity rules, imo.
why can't life be simpler. everyone'll be much happier, i bet.

and
always look on the bright side of life.
i'll try, i know i will.

.

nothing is how i feel now.

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

got all my results back already.
they are horribly beautiful. (sense the sarcasm yet again, please)

a total of 1 A1, 1 A2, 3 B3s, 1 B4 and 1 C5.
great.

so a recount.
HCL - 68.5% B3
LA - 67% B3
Hist. - 60.5% B4
Geog - 73% A2
Math - 56% C5 (yayaya. this calls for a huge scolding from my dad :D)
Bio. Sciences (Bio + LS) - 67% B3 (all because of my 32.5 from life science. roar)
Phy. Sciences (Phy + Chem) - 75.4% A1

(: good right. -.-

don't know why. i know i can just work harder next year and all, and i will. it's just something else that's bothering me.. sorry guys if i've been so glum and moody and all. just upset with myself =)

i'm happy for all those who did very well for whatever subject.
congratulations to aly who topped math, amaris who topped LA, and abigail who attained As for all subjects! ;D

keep it up. as for those who didn't do as well as they should have, jiayou =)

and again, i thank all teachers for bringing me through 2006. i'm just disappointed. and i'm sure many teachers are. math was tough, really.

PEACE OUT (: (ironic. when my chinese name is "twisted", it becames 'zhi' which is stop, and 'ning' which is peace. so yeah i stop peace. *coughyarightcough* no i do NOT stop peace. in fact, i hate the class' noise level.)

and it just occurred to me that our EOYs are just 60%. the other 40% come from the 4 respective terms. seeing my poor-enough results of each term, including a failure of HCL once, i have no doubts i'll fail overall or something. unless a miracle happens.
at most, with one kick, i'll be out of SBC. good news? though i don't know what my family'd say if that would have happened.

optimistic pessimism is good isn't it?

"YAY. I'm going to fail." ;)

what a good way to end a day.

Fly Away - Corrinne May

sometimes, i really wished i could fly away from this place. life sucks here. (: sometimes lah.

it's 0024 now. new day. doomsday. math & bio. *drumroll* i'll just be prepared to under-perform.

great now. i wished i could rant all day. there are just so many things i want to do.
it just isn't possible.

i guess dad's hogging the other comp, mapling. his interest eh. pretty glad i managed to get away from gaming. i hardly touch maple anymore, let alone internet games.

should think my grandparents are asleep now. i should go to bed soon too.
i'm tired, yet i do not wish to go to bed. once i lie on bed, fall asleep, i'll go into the known-to-be wonderful, empty of trouble dreamland, which i don't wish to. you dream about something so sweet, and whatnot, and you then wake up to realise it was a dream. your hopes were high for that moment, and the next moment, you wished you were still in the land of no troubles. sweet dreams. sweeet dreams. i always say that to people before bedtime. but i bet there are many more nightmares for us to be freaked out about, than sweet dreams. hahaha.

going to school early has no use anymore. i've got no mood to talk to friends. maybe i should just sleep more. wake up at 6.30, leave the house at 6.55, and still reach school on time with 10-15 minutes of gloominess to spare.

perhaps i should. i used to love school so much because of the friends i'll meet, but i no longer wish to do so. maybe a break is needed. i really need a break from all these problems in class. i can't take it any longer.

all right, good night (: i better go now.

great news. my dad just got a steely. (: now he'll just not bother me anymore.

God bless. i'll go do my prayers. and fall on bed.

goodbye

Hillsong - Tell The World; God He reigns

bad results. though it doesn't really matter anymore.
CA4
LA - 39/60 (oh c'mon i kinda didn't hand in the paul's wheel thing. sorry) B3
HCL - 79.4/100 (what an achievement-.-) A1
Bio - 44/50 A1
Chem - 64/100 (that test. that evil test. i only scored 16/25. whee.) B4
Math - 64/100 (and that one test that pulled me down. ;( ) B4
Geog - 20.5/30 B3 (yay my first B for geog. ;D)-.-
Hist - 63.5/100 B4 (nothing to say. i passed :D)
Art & Philo - A2

EOYS
HCL - 68.5/100 (that's 137/200. it's good. roar :x) B3
Hist - 60.5/100 (YAY I PASSED. i failed the sbq section. i didnt even do it. x_X) B4
Geog - 73/100 (WHEE A2.)
Chem; Sect B,C - 35/45 (not bad lah)

all right about all i know now. mrs ng was absent today. didnt go through LA in the end.

there's sth i want to do :D
MADELINE ANG I WANT TO ASK HOW YOU GET 57.5/60 FOR CHEM. ROAR. AND PHYSICS. YOU TOPPER OF SCIENCES ALWAYS. since pri sch. anyway, i'm happy for you. congratulations =)

and wow finally got to see my report book since last june. i'm actually amazed at the p6 results. got A for eng, chi, math & science. how nice. and distinction for hcl. nice to see nice to hear. but lol this year. how ironic.

disappointed with myself. what can i do? nothing. work harder next year ah. dang. i shall.

wanna thank all the teachers who's brought me through the first year of secondary life :D

word(s) of the day: optimistic pessimism

Rivermaya-you'll be safe here

hah i'm sure today was a great day wasn't it?

first things first, ca4. crap one of the lowest in class again.
haha okay not crap. nevermind :D i'm satisfied with the A2(seriously, what's wrong with you guysgirls? all so smart. heh, congrats).
though i'm just glad i got 79 for higher chinese compared to the 48 last term -.-

lol as for eoys, die die. :x
geog A2, hcl B3, not sure about chem yet though. got only sect. b & c back. lol minus like what ten marks already. okay nevermind.

tomorrow's gonna be worse! LA and hist. then got some cca checking. haha it's good. it's at the audi. that means aircon. (lol i'm so desperate for aircon ;p)

ah well. die die die.
no i'm not dead. i'm alive and kicking.

but yeah, i prayed for good attitude towards the results right? yes i shall do that. good attitude. i tried my best, so that's what that matters. ;D

so :self-consoles: i shall not do anything, but stone. lol!
;D

the psi. bad. hahaha. ;x


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"My power shows up best in weak people." 2 Corinthians 12:9

As we confess our weakness to God, He releases His power in us. In our human weakness we utilise His divine strength. Not only is His grace sufficient for each trial but for the support He gives in the midst of the trial.

GOOD LUCK<3

*music; UNBELIEVABLE by CRAIG DAVID, THE STORY GOES.

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable,
to finally be in love,
Somewhere I never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable,
to finally be in love,
Somewhere I never thought I'd be.

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I can't help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable,
to finally be in love,
Somewhere I never thought I'd be.

Now I see, what love means.

that's quite a meaningful song, but a song more meaningful. inspirational;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M7sXa2kPPc4

:D

this, touching:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryCTIigaloQ

all right, sleep time.
good night (:

ding dong.
:D

random post (;

something funny just happened.

ks sent an emoticon: the monkey scratching head saying bb.
and i said it out. my dad heard and coincidentally, HE WAS SCRATCHING HIS HEAD. and he was laughed. oh what a coincidence.

i have to get what i want to done.
#1-make a blogskin for _ _ (hoping none of my ********** see this. it's meant to be a surprise for them. i love you guysGIRLS<3
#2-make a blogskin for sherri. (:
#3-make bday gifts for su & ks - pretty urgent
#4-make dps for shar, linghui for the fun of it.

i guess that's all.

doomsday.
doomsday
doomsday has arrived.

but God will bring me through it.

TO GLORY BE GOD. :D

"IF EACH OF US DO OUR LITTLE PART, WE CAN REACH THE WHOLE WORLD FOR CHRIST."
about mission, for that matter. :)

(it's gonna be a boring post yeah? :x)

nothing much happened today.
went to church
had fun
saw my friends
had lunch with my mum
bought kueh lapis
watched tv
read magazines-DOG ONES
played with the dogs of course
had dinner
came home

I'M HERE.

wow, interesting eh.

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"When the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow."-James 1:3

What do we do when the going gets rough? What is our reaction to trouble? God uses these difficlties as a process of development in our spiritual growth. In order to grow and mature in patience, we need opportunites to develop it.
and where do opportunities come from? you search for them. God will give each and everyone one of you a chance, or rather chances.

GOD BLESS<3
and all the best to all taking their results back this week.
it's about the attitude. have a good attitude towards the results ;D be it good or bad, thank God you had a chance to sit for the exams.
see you. and good night.

:D take care dearies, guys, everyone.

(ironically, i think it's doomsday for me tomorrow. oh well. <3)

that was probably the most colourful post i've ever had ;D

it's a nice day.
my daddy bought me ice cream just now.
and.. and..

can't wait till tomorrow.

have an early night guys <3

i love my life. :D

*music: rain down, hillsong/unified praise.
great song (;

YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPINESS MEANS?

yeah, i betcha do.

i'm meeting mum tomorrow. yay! after church. and yes at the mention of church,
wheee there's church tomorrow morning!, and chapel the following. see? happy days ahead of me ;D

so i guess both sherri & i are having loads of fun?
one with FF7 (she's addicted already!), and one with.. photoshop and blogging perhaps. x)

and seriously, to all out there;

WHAT'S WITH THE PRINCESS HOURS/GOONG CRAZE.
and well as TYPING BACKWARDS?
i don't understand why. ;)

PEACEOUT;D

it's so nice to be happy

*music: tian tian ye ye - FIR;
which isn't that bad a song (:

i love you
you love me
we are happy family
with a great big hug
and a kiss from me to you
won't you say you love me too!

;D i'm really happy now. well, barney song!

i found the true meaning of friends today. thank YOU (:
[though no mention of names here. but thanks =)]

stay happy everyone :D

exams are over, yet there's this sense of emptiness. can't wait till it's real holidays. since now i'm still looking forward to doomsday. /sarcasm
[oh i'm sure i'm looking forward to my results. oh of course i'm not. see the irony? yeah you do, i know you do.]

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"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He'll make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)

"In everything you do, put God first."(Proverbs 3:6) There is a two-fold relationship between God and man in these verses. Our part is to trust, lean on (but this is definitely a wrong thing to do if you were mentoring someone. lean on has connotations of ______*), and acknowledge Him. If we keep our part, God has promised to keep His part in directing our paths, making sure we do the right things. There is a never-failing promise to the one who meets its conditions.

life is indeed hilariously cruel, sometimes,
but thanks (;

TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all You are

And I would give the world to tell You're story
Cause I know that You've called me
I know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
I won't hide it
I won't hide it

Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For You alone are the Son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God!


taking that off from my profile. so here to keep it as a record (:

cheers! ;D

it's always when we lose something, when we regret. not treasuring it. even for people.
take an example of our grandparents. we think they're very naggy and all, but when they leave us, we wish there were people to nag at us..

that's why we've got to cherish, treasure whoever we have as a kin, a friend, even enemies who give us a challenge to overcome, perhaps that barrier between us? who knows, i may live through this second, die the next. life is unpredictable, and i'm just taking each step at a time.

"thats why im betting everything i have on my life right now", though i wouldn't mention the name. i think i have to learn from that, doncha think? yeah, i have to.

i'm really really blessed, and i should just cherish the blessings. and go and bless others by helping them, donating items to the less fortunate maybe? blood type of O's an universal donor? maybe when i grow up, i'll donate blood too. yep, that's probably my plan for the future.
to help others.

all right, i shall go play with photoshop again. and surprisingly, i havent touched maple since.. i don't know though i said i would.. haha, k better get going then.

God bless<3

(an add-on from the previous post:)
i'm really glad God gave me life, i mean i go to school, talk to friends, even sit where i am now to use the computer, type this,.. help others, because he gave me the ability to. go through certain difficult situations so that i can help others who go through the same experience, and all. really glad i can be talking to all my friends :)

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"So he will do for me all he has planned." -Job 23:14 (NLT)

When we believe that all He has planned for our lives is for our good and His glory, and when we trust our lives to Him, then we can be assured He will do nothing short of is best for us. "No good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly."(Psalm 84:11)

it's better to give than to receive (:

something that really made me think;

- DaRren - Exams are finally over ! says (1:24 PM):
im kinda glad god gave me life
- DaRren - Exams are finally over ! says (1:24 PM):
otherwise i wudn't be here talking to u

:) i think he's right. sometimes, i take friends for granted, thinking that all of them are just friends that i hang out with like today and oh tomorrow, with some friend who betrays or whatever. i think they'll always be there for me, and everything. but nope, that's not true.
what happens if a mishap just happened to any of them? i'll regret not treating them well. but i think regret is yet unavoidable, yet avoidable. it's in our control isn't it?


thanks darren, (: for helping me reflect.
and thanks to all my friends, who are so caring, kind, concerned.
may God bless all of you<3

I LOVE YOU GOD

(Read on from previous post. thanks(: )

God is sometimes silent because He knows we aren't willing to obey. He is
always ready to show us His will, but He shows His will only to those who
really want to do it. Jesus said in John 7:17, "If anyone wants to do His
will, he shall know concerning the doctrine." Obedient people always hear
the voice of God.


Finally, sometimes God is silent that He might test us--to teach us the
importance of silence, the importance of waiting on Him. Waiting helps
remind us of God's sovereignty.

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The silence of God is one of the difficult tests of faith. What should you
do when He is silent? Remember His faithfulness and past blessings. Live
today on what He has already told you. Trust Him and wait. You will hear
the voice of God again.

i stand and lift up my hands, for the joy of the Lord is my strength.

Title: Why is God Silent?
Author: Warren Wiersbe

Read Psalm 109:1-13


What do you do when heaven is silent? What do you do when you cry out to
God and there is no answer, or at least you can't hear it? This happened to
David. He kept crying out to God, "Do not keep silent, O God of my praise!"
(v. 1). David was being attacked by the wicked--a frequent occurrence in
his life. You must remember that when he prayed these prayers of judgment
(v. 13), he was not seeking personal revenge. No, he was praying as God's
king over Israel. David wanted to see the wicked judged because they were
attacking the people of God, the ones from whom God's Word and His Son
would come.


Why is God silent at times? It may be because we aren't listening or we
don't want to listen. Evangelist Billy Sunday used to say that a sinner
can't find God for the same reason a criminal can't find a policeman--he's
not looking. Sin makes us turn a deaf ear to God. When Adam and Eve heard
the voice of God in the Garden of Eden, they ran and hid. Children often do
that when they disobey.


Sometimes God is silent because we aren't ready for the message. He wants
to talk to us about something, but we aren't ready. We have to go through
refining trials to make us ready to listen.


to be continued...

it's a brand new day, and a holiday!
marking day today, tomorrow as well.

my grandma's gonna bring me out somewhere, though i don't really wish to go x) but
have been sticking to the comp since yesterday, maybe a break'll be good anyway.

oh well. can't wait till the whole "result-taking" period's over. i mean, who wants to know how badly they fared?

all right then,
God bless (:

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"Our Father who art in heaven" -Matthew 6:9

God, as our Father, is all you would desire in an ideal father. We can come to Him knowing He loves us. He is intersted in our lives, and wants to involve Himself in them. He watches over us, ready to protect us. He provides for us bountifully from His great inexhaustible resources. He is near us, not far away.

and i really need to reflect upon whatever i've done this whole year

it's great to be able to console others, help them and everything.

but sometimes, i see myself in a situation others are in, but isn't self-motivated to stand up again. wow, how great can that get?

Dear Lord,
thank You for giving me the ability,
to help others. thank You for giving me good health, that
i don't fall sick very often, and have the mind that works well,
and everything beautiful on earth.
thank You!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

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i love the carefree life i'm leading now ;D
exams are over! i'm high (;

yess, exams are over ;D

getting back the results on monday-thursday.
ah, doomsday for me then.

so i shall enjoy myself now, while i can.

im gonna play maple, try audition, play with photoshop, make blogskins finally, and have fun with my LOVELOVELOVELY COMP! ;D

yeah, my plans for these few days.
how nice yeah? and read the bible.
start getting to know 'to kill a mocking bird' as mrs ng says.
read the shou ces my dad got me. check out the assessment books he bought.
clear the boxes in my room, and get rid of unwanted stuff.

i'm gonna start a new life next year, more organised that is T____________________T
i'm so ill disciplined, disorganised, anything.
that now i shall change ;D

ah well, i'm really just gonna have fun.
ah whatever. anything.
just wanna enjoy myself now.
whee.
:) and yes forgot to mention, newspapers.
even my grandparents requested i read the chinese papers.
quoting them, "ni de hua wen ji chu bu zen me hao. qing mei tian du bao zhi, ok?"
hahaha..

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"Remembering without ceasing your work of faith, and labour of love, and patience of hope in our Lord Jesus Christ, in the sight of God and our Father." -1 Thessolonians 1:3

Perhaps we should evaluate the motive of our work. Is it for the applause of people? The benefits we will receive? A feeling of accomplishing something? Or is our service a work of faith, a work we know has been God given?

it's good to be free.

i have tried my best,
to be happy, type happy posts,
smile at school,
please my dad,
and what do i get? unhappiness.

why do things end up like this?
must it always be this 'HONOURABLE ENDING'?
i really don't know.

i miss the old times.
even julia jie isn't talking to me anymore.

what can i say.
and indeed, 2006 is just gonna end like that?
so soon.
regret saying whatever i did to whoever.
whoever i've hurt this year, i apologise.
and do forgive me.

my life's for God.
and I will live for him.
..and this is the only thing i can be happy about. eternal life.

material needs.
do i need them that much?
i'm a typical girl who sits in front of the computer, talks on msn, everything. slacking, whatever. it's wrong. and i don't know what's wrong with me. only God does.
there's a purpose to everything? yeah i'm sure. that's what it says in the bible.

and really, i wished i wasn't who i am, didn't do what i've done.
not even to live.

i miss the past.
bring me back to the past.

in the future. you wake up in the morning.
pick up the straits times.
check out the headline
"a 13 year old girl who sits on the street on her own, rots to death, with no company."

and yes that'll be me. someone who's been acting all her life.
acting happy. making people happy.
giving in. taken advantage of. life's like this right? great, i'll live with this.

kthx.

that was just a post, where gillian suddenly goes bonkers, and forgets about reality. thankyou.
sorry for that.

LEAVE
OR
READ

your choice. because i'm insignificant yeah. (:

hey all, for the 3rd time today (:

something i found 'cool': from John 5.

there was a man who couldn't walk. but a miracle happened. he could walk, because Jesus healed him. but the Jewish priests objected because he was healed on the Sabbath. and they said, he couldnt walk because it was the Sabbath or something like that.

haha, just something i found funny/weird :) of course it continues. but go check out the bible to know more! the assurance of salvation's mentioned as well ;D

i guess i had enough today. gonna go try to annotate some poems in about poetry, then try writing it out as and essay as in unseen. and also look through the hoot themes ppt slides, and the boook itself. i think i'm gonna die for it. (oh no, i shouldn't be saying that. i don't want to die, and neither does God want me to. so death, leave me :))

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"And the Lord said, Behold, there is a place by me, and I shall stand upon a rock." Exodus 33:21

God has a special place by Himself designed just for each of us. It is close beside Him in the heavenlies. No one else fits into our place. From this special place of companionship with Him we can have conversation together, just like friends. He will give us words of counsel, comfort and guidance. (Psalm 32:8b says 'I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advice you and watch over you.') At times He may have to chasten us, but He does it with and in LOVE. From this special place beside Him we receive His directions for each day.

Change me, so I'll never be the same, Lord, I want to see the things that You see. All I see is You. & You are the one I adore.

taking this down from my profile today, so here it is, to keep as a record:

A TIME FOR EVERYTHING
There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to rebuild.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to lose.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak up.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.
-taken from ecclesiastes 3: 1-8

i'll sure try all those quizzes i see on others' blogs for the fun of it after tomorrow. it's just great pleasure to know there ain't no papers for me to fret about anymore. :)

God bless <3

math's over ;D and now it's the last 2 papers.LA 3 & HCL 3.
should be all right, i guess.

celebratory lunch tomorrow anyone? (;
hahaha, finally the 12 papers are gonna be *poooooof*.
yeah self-explanatory. i don't like exams. but who does?
i think some do, but anyway.

ah, life's so good.
being a christian's even better.
it's better than life.

Better than the riches of this world
Better than the sound of my friend's voices
Better than the biggest dreams of my heart
And that's just the start

Better than getting what I say I need
Better than living the life that I want to
Better than the love anyone could give
Your love is

You hold me now in Your arms
And never let me go

You Oh Lord make the sun shine
And the moon light in the night sky
You give me breath and all Your love
I give my heart to You because

I can't stop falling in love with You
I'll never stop falling in love with You
I can't stop falling in love with You
I'll never stop falling in love with You

:)

at the cross i bow my knees

wheee. bio and chem are over (:

so those non-higher chinese p6s are done with their major exams.. hah, lucky them :) (ie pearlyn, nerine, angela etc.)
as for those taking higher chinese, just a day more. jiayou :D

can't wait to see ser online. =) she's really hardworking & studious, but nope she wasn't stressed out :) pei fu~
hope joelle did all right too, that math pro :D (yes ve, i know your sis's really good at math (; )

so yeah, math :) math math math.
should be all right i guess.
gonna revise the whole thick stack of worksheets after this. just going to have to avoid committing careless mistakes, or i know what consequences i'll face.
firstly, my dad going "how many times have i told you already? don't make careless mistakes like this!" secondly, my results ;( thirdly, being upset with myself. now i really gotta self-reflect after wed. (:

well, at least the more challenging subjects are now over. (not saying math isn't challenging. neither did i say LA 3'll be a breeze, but yeah.) more relaxed now :D

we're almost there!
ganbatte all! :D
just 4 more papers to go.

God loves & blesses you, remember ;)
and pray! for guidance yeah!
(and i regret, neglecting God for many, many things. even now, i don't see myself praying to him that much anymore

Dear Lord,
thank You for whatever you've given me. the tons of blessings, material needs.
but i know i need You Lord.
please let me grow to become more like You,
and please forgive me, let me not to be a sinful person.
In Jesus's name,
Amen.)

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"We are labourers together with God." -1 Corinthians 3:9

We are in partnership with God, not God in partnership with us. Sometimes, we come to Him saying, "Dear Lord, I am going to work here today; I want to serve you here; come and help me." But He has the right to tell us where He wants us to serve. We should say "Lord, where do you want to use me today? Place me there and use me." Only in this way will our labour bring glory to God.

it's bio & chem tomorrow!
though afraid to fail, but I know I'll try my best.
And God will bring me through it (:
and the other 4 papers as well.

all the best everyone else! :D

"Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation" Psalm 68:19

Why not pause now and thank Him for all the blessings He has given you, for material possesions and spiritual blessings. Thank Him for the trials and obstacles He has permitted that He might teach needful lessons to you.
as said in Psalm 92:1, "It is a good thing to give thanks unto the Lord, and to sing praises unto thy name, O most High."


now back to cramming (;

GOD BLESS<3

the haze.
is bad.

current psi reading: 143
the highest of 2006 (:



:)

it's quite bad.
having sore throat, runny/sneezy nose & eye irritation.

anyway, jiayou all studying in this condition!, though it isn't as serious as 1997's 200+

take care <3
gi

hello again(:

half the race left to run.

bio
chem
math
LA unseen/hoot essay
HCL list.

you know, i really gotta do some self reflection after the exams.

hahaa,
now time to go

God blesss. :D

just had dinnner.
late dinner today since my granddad came home late (:

currently studying for geog.
and well, should be working through the night.
got coffee prepared like how spar said it'll help :)

not really freaking out as much as yesterday, partly because i'm not too anxious for geog. :)
as for HCL2, i'm really hoping to complete it on time, and with care. no crapping through.
=)

so now it's 4 papers down, 8 to go.
that isn't actually too fast or too slow.
i guess it's just fine :)

didn't finish the hist. paper today. ;(
minus 10 marks already. but whatever it is, i gave in my best, even though i didn't have enough preparation for it.
that's the most important yeah?

ah this rocks x)


k then back to geog.

see ya(:

laura replied my sms =) she's fine. and i'm glad she is. (:



2 papers down, 10 to go.

they were fine, just fine.

i did 'stars' for LA, and Q1&3 for hcl.

'wo gan le yi jian sha shi'
and my sha shi was underage smoking.

lol! didn't know what else to write. :)
as for si han, i guess i kinda crapped through it.

i should think i didn't do eyewitness report + si han that well. ah well.


it's LA 2 and history tomorrow.

compre and summary should be fine.
but hist., i'm prepared to 'die'.

maybe i shouldn't be part of history, since i can't even get the subject right =)

anyway, hope the english paper for the p6s were fine today. (ah, i'm sure it was. i won a bet! with ser's "english was fine" :D)

hahaa, k then cya;)

the trauma -
no one can comprehend.

i really hope laura's fine. and no i am not going to think abt it, it only makes me cry.

dear Lord,
please see that your child'll be fine.
thank you Jesus,
Amen

song of the day :)
sang it during chapel as well :D

SALVATION IS HERE!

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
And I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright

Hear the sounds of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your name
It's gonna be alright

Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me

Salvation is here
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation that died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cause You are alive and You live in me

(: hah not listening to that song now though.
all right. remember guys, don't fall sick.
the weather's bad these few days.
the haze (;


isaac's bday party yesterday was BAD BAD BAD.
maybe i should have just came home straight from church to study.
haha. nevermind. it's over anyway.

2 DAYS.
just 2 DAYS more.
to the major exams.
that's really soon, and i'm afraid i'm not that prepared.

that's 12 papers. roar!

04 10 - lang arts 1
hcl 1
05 10 - lang arts 2
history
06 10 - hcl 2
geog
09 10 - bio
chem
10 10 - math 1
math 2
11 10 - lang arts 3
hcl 3

:D dang.
that makes up the TWELVE.

so near yet so far.
i dont know what i'm saying,
but anyhow,

all the best to the P6s! :D
namely ser, pearlyn, andrea, nerine and all close friends (:

k better continue with history now.
peace-