Doubt vs Faith.
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Matthew 8:25,28
Speaks alot to me, really.


Even Jesus doesn't know (Himself) when the end of the world is, only the Father knows. (Mark 13:32 'No one knows about that day or hour, not even angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only he Father.')
God the Father knows the time, and yes, Jesus and God are one, but when Jesus became a man, He voluntarily gave up the unlimited use of his divine attributes(power). The verse is then not focusing on Jesus' lack of knowledge, but rather the fact that no one knows when the time will come. It is the Father's secret to be revealed when He wants/wills. No on can predict by Scripture or science the exact day of Jesus' return. Jesus is actually teaching that preparation is what that's needed, not calculation.

Dad's life application study bible teaches me alot of new things, which is good. :)

So, all the false prophets who prophesise about Armaggedon (sp?) coming in 5 years, 10 years etc, they're all false. Don't be deceived! Christians can be deceived too. Just like how Satan used God's word to tempt Jesus (to jump down some tower, I think :s)
Mark 13:5-7 says 'Jesus said to them: "Watch that no one deceives you. Many will come in my name, claiming "I am he," and will deceive many. When you hear of wars and rumors of wars, do not be alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come.'

Yeah man, 'joke' of the day: God just blessed me with a little more brain juice than some others.
:)

We all feel sorry for Ms Kon, she wanted to spend more time with her family after she retires. It's good to know her mother's now resting in the arms of God and that's the most important thing 'cos they'll be reunited once Jesus comes for them.
It was a sad event we went for - 'guard of honour', but it was fun overall I guess. Ge Rou, Shar and I chatted quite abit and laughed much at Ge Rou's retardedness! :D And chatting with Salad while we were waiting for our parents/grandparents to pick us up. That was nice.

Haha, I think Sherri's gonna jump if she finds out I missed the news. I promised her I'll watch. Nevermind! :D Thanks to her mum all the same.

Happy birthday Claire! (if she sees this)

haha, okay. I have to start working on guides stuff, SMPF and hcl homework without fail.
Just in case my short term memory loss relapses (haha), here's all I have to do (notes to self) in the next 2 weeks or so:

complete silver for guides modules
read up on activities to be done on guides meetings
smpf discussion on tuesday*
creating stuff for health awareness with admin/log comm
pack for international guides camp
call guides in banner/poster design comp (inform them about tues morning meeting)
complete reading chao ji ah ma


and I can't remember what else. Maybe more will come.

Night!


Hello everybody, I'm finally not so tired.
Hahah, right. Thanks for tagging!

Sherri :) My dad offered to tape it down, I don't even want to watch tv tomorrow!
sabina yo! I got you something, hahah.
ks Hello! Yeah, long time no see!
pearlyn Haha, hello. I didn't get to be a shark in the end, hah!
liz Hello! Thanks so much, I had fun. :)
serena Haha, yes fellow kookoo, LTNS. Hope you're enjoying yourself overseas (was it America?) even though you'll probably not see this. :D
cheng Nah! I had 2 camps in a row, and then I went to HK. ;)
Sc Oh, so sad but it's so crowded everywhere over there anyway. Okay, except the hotel rooms, haha.
nic Hello! Happy holidays :)
Jess HELLO JESS! I haven't started either, so don't worry. It's worse for me, school's starting really soon. Just a month plus left :( Seeya!
Sc Haha, I chose a mugging combi for a reason. Hopefully it'll make me more disciplined and be more consistent in everything. ;)
Psp Oh yes m'am, AGAIN! Haha, ouch, I want a change too. :p
Sherri Thanks, it's going to be a noisy year with Hwang, Jalla, Maddie and Lina. So sad, there was 50% chance we'd be in the same class. I didn't expect Hwang to be in my class though. Happy nonetheless - very high-tech class. :)

I just realised that bunch of text up there look weird, too many smileys, ha.



Hwang and Maddie have flown over to "G", they probably wanted to be more high-tech. Hahahaha, I don't make any sense.

I do NOT have Sherri and Sharanya in my class but nevermind. :( and people like Jess, Adberz, Sarah etc.
72/7 entertainment makes up for it.

HK was really good, but I'm too lazy (and too many other things to do, haha) to post any pictures.

:D

Okay, night.

3G. I like 'G'. Haha.


Quoted from Jess' blog:
3T
1. Abigail Nyam
2. Adorabelle
3. Ainiah
4. Melissa
5. Bea
6. Mchan
7. Tiffy (Cheong)
8. Anna
9. Cherry
10. Priyanshu
11. Me
12. Patricia
13. Roxanne!
14. Chris
15. Sherri
16. Carissa
17. Merrilyn
18. Ray Wern
19. Nishanti
20. Sadhika
21. Sarah (From 2G)
22. Sarah (Jane)
23. Janice Soon
24. T. Sharanya
25. Violette
26. Vanessa

3G
1. Alyssa Chen
2. Manda! :(
3. Amaris
4. Maddy! :(
5. Angela! :(
6. Benita Lau
7. Grace Cheah! :(
8. Huiying
9. Nicole Chee!
10. Denise
11. Petra
12. Clare! :(
13. Deb! :(
14. Mhwang! :(
15. Anisha (Auntie!)
16. Kimberly
17. Shina!
18. Gi Peck! :(
19. Rachel Ng
20. Rida
21. Samantha!
22. Jia Yhin
23. Sophia
24. Yu Ting
25. Suatty
26. Tiffany Gan
27. Lina! :O (With Mhwang. Omg, imagine that)
28. Ze-Eie

3 letters! This is for everyone to share the joy of writing all the 函s with me. It's good we get holiday homework, keeps me occupied and it's better use of time than spending time on the computer, erm, playing bejeweled. Heh.

This is probably my last post before I leave for the wonderful prefects'/guides camp, LTC and Hong Kong so take care everybody! :D Hahah, I shall be MIA from the 12th to the 22nd :)

The holiday's been all right. I crashed 2T's class party yesterday. :P They're really united on a whole, at least better than 2G, hor. X) But of course, my class isn't bad either! It's a very different experience being around 2T. Fresh, hahah.

I've been playing bejeweled at least once everyday, it's super fun/addictive! But again, it's not good to be hooked on any games - very time consuming. I'll be going over to Priyanshu's tomorrow to discuss stuff for SMPF (which I realised Ainiah and Kimberly have already started on, good job!) and edit Ms Kon's farewell vid with her iMac. :D

Yep, I can't wait for next week. Everything's going to be really fun with different groups of people.

For now, my cousin and I are being very childish. It's called reliving our childhood. Hahaha, we're hiding from Nai Nai (and my dad when he gets home, because I'm prepared to get a lecture from him - I didn't do something I should have, for God) and it's really fun! Makeshift 'tent' with 'poles' from the kitchen and a hugeeee blanket.

Take care and happy holidays!
God bless :)

Thank you so much Jess & Pearlyn! :D
and most importantly, thank God.


Yeah, I'm high again.
God answers prayers.

Even though I haven't gotten what I want/need, Dad has done alot for me, and I'm thankful I have such a good daddy now.
:)


Yeaaa, can't wait for everyday to come, haha.
The next 2 weeks're gonna be realll busy.

I don't bother explaining anymore, it doesn't work. Only Dad understands.



Oh well.
God will turn things around for me I know.

Sorry if there're any grammatical errors etc, but you may correct me if there are, thanks
and this post is solely for my own reflection, so I hope none of you'll take offence whatsoever (though I don't think there's any reason to) ;]

Second post in an hour, but I have to.
I have too many things on my mind now, but God has the time, for everything you have to say, all the time :)

I feel guilty, very very guilty.
Each time I tell myself I have to put in more effort in reminding myself that in every step I take, in everything I do, all those has to be for God.
I know that God is with me, I know it but the faith is still not there. I know how important faith is, but it's difficult, when hypocrisy (as well as procrastination) comes into the picture.
#1 on the list of Christian ways to reduce stress is to pray. I do, but guess when I do? When I desperately need Him, when I get into trouble, when I lose something, when the weather's bad, sometimes when I'm really thankful - but that hardly happens, just a little more recently.
I guess faith doesn't just come like that, in the snap of a finger, but I have to just spend time alone with God and God alone, because only then can I feel His presence, and power. It's been years, I've been in a church kindergarten and now MG, chapel/Worship, it's all gotten into me, but I still haven't taken those into action. Every time I start trying to spend more time with God, the next day I probably have something more important and urgent to do, forgetting what is more important. Needless to say, God is. Adults always tell you to have quiet time, I've probably heard that thousands of times in my entire life, but only ten times, twenty times, thirty times have I done what I know is the best for me, because God always wants us to have the best.
Day by day, as Dad tells me more about what he learns in his classes at church, what he feels about what God has done for us, bible study sessions just with him and Aunt Kaylee alone since he has gotten to know God just months ago, I begin to see why he's striving so hard to be holy, Godly, and just obedient to God.

It's definitely a struggle, a struggle I have to overcome. But I trust in God, I trust in God, I trust in God. And one day, I'll let the whole world know what God has done in my life.

It's very hard to express how you feel, which is why we humans have feelings right? I mean if you could just write down however you felt, it wouldn't be personal and heartfelt anymore - even a diary doesn't work, ha. I doubt this' just happening to me, but I feel the impact greatly now, really.

Just a few weeks (was it about 2?) ago, I was just feeling very dissatisfied, discontent of the results I got. Come to think of it, I shouldn't have been that way, instead try harder the next time (how hypocrisy comes into play now - I've been telling others the same) and more importantly, thank God for the results He gave. He saw me through the nights I stayed up to complete work, through the nights I was up studying, trying to absorb whatever I could, just so I can bring Glory to Him - but was I contented with what I got? Nope, I dwelled upon my poor results, how I really could have done better, but there's no use looking at the past. In fact, we should just be thankful for everyday we live - until we go to the better place that's waiting for us. We never know what's gonna happen the next minute, but thank God I'm here typing this for myself to reflect upon the whole school year.
I guess even as I don't look back into the year, I shouldn't start worrying about 'oh, what am I going to do next year? everytime a new school year starts, my results just go all the way back below average again (yes, it happened in term 1, and started improving - thank God once again)' or 'Sec 3's going to zoom past really quickly so shouldn't I be studying now, and not getting myself involved in too many activities?', because as many say, we shouldn't borrow from the future. If we worry about what may happen tomorrow, but it doesn't, we've just worried in vain and even if it does happen, we have to worry twice, so it's not worth it, right?
(All the 'we's I've been using, I'm referring to myself yeah. :))

Yep.
I trust God will bring me through this period of time where I'm very uncertain about how life's gonna be, and how I can become a better child of God, just as He has brought me through many obstacles - even if I forgot it was Him who was beside me all the time.

For now, I'm just abit down, but I'll be all right soon.

Trust me, God's love is very powerful.



Because, You're faithful to the end
I'll sing of the grace that I found in You
And all that You've done
Through the power of the cross for me

I'll sing of the mercy I found in You
And all that You are
And the fullness of Your love for me

All that I have has come from Your hand
And all I ever know is Jesus
You are faithful to the end

I'll tell of the wonders I found in You
And the love that You've shown
It's higher than the heavens burns in me

All that I have has come from Your hand
And all I ever know is Jesus
You are faithful

What in this world could take me from Your love?
All I ever know is Jesus
You are faithful
All I ever know is Jesus
You are faithful to the end

Right, so there definitely are people like those in the world, but argh, how could they have done that! :(


Okay, that aside. :(
Hahaha, I warn you, don't go on if you don't want to faint.





































Wonder if I were really at work last year: (People change alot in secondary school :/)

(Hahaha I used to be more tanned, weird)
Okay, go on laughing.
Laughing's good.
It's definitely a good way to reduce stress. (Laugh and laugh more are #26&27 in my 33 Christian ways to reduce stress).

助人为快乐之本 - I'm going to do something about that. We always use it in chinese compos when it's relevant, but I haven't exactly achieved it yet. Yearly CIP isn't enough so I'm going to do my best to be very committed to some form of community work like befriending the elderly or something. :)
This holiday's gonna be fulfilling, but the years to come will be even more fulfilling - because I can feel that God is telling me so.

Night :)

#321 featuring Sharanya & Andrea, my very very good friends!


Yay, thank God.
People whom I've proclaimed my happiness to will know what I'm thankful for.
And shar owes me 10 cents - though we both agreed the bet was cancelled X)

Andrea's always so nice!
She's right - I have to type properly. :p (And I'm too talkative online)

Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
then why dont you email her?
gillian says:
hehehe
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
and if you do, you MUST type it out neatly.
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
No lols, hahas and smiley faces (well, you can add a few)
gillian says:
yeah, i know
gillian says:
hahha okay
gillian says:
i never 'lol'
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
not like: Hey lydia, i noe that u noe my home add
gillian says:
HAHA
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
thatt types
gillian says:
i don't type that way, my dear :)
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
type*
gillian says:
but thanks for telling me anyway
gillian says:
haha, i find 'noe' and anything similar
gillian says:
very hard to comprehend
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
i know my dear i was just telling you my dear :)
gillian says:
:)
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
high five!
gillian says:
should i call her lyddie
gillian says:
hahaha
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
absolutely NOT. zhi, you are in secretariat therefore you must learn to type properly,NO NICKNAMES
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
sorry, i sound so bossy
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
sample letter
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
Dearest Lydia,
I am absolutely delighted to be part of the Secretariat Committee. It is an honour to be led by the best committee head in the Prefectorial Board. (hahas)
As you know, we are required to give our committee heads our address. Below is my address and should you have any probelmlink
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
any probelm, please contact me at ........
gillian says:
haha, thanks alot :)
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
___________
#First stair case, 3 storeys up, apartment on the left
Singapore _____
Thank you,
Gillian Peck Zhining
gillian says:
;)
gillian says:
thanks for the effort! :D i really appreciate it.


That was Andrea's advice #101.
Hahaha, thanks. And you can even remember where my unit is!
And no, you're not bossy at all! Sometimes just a little paranoid but Shar and I understands :)
Thanks Andrea for ALL the advice you've given me so far. And it's gonna be two long months before I can get your company every morning again!
Congratulations on getting into 2E next year - continue to work hard okay! You're always so hardworking, since I've known you (how long has it been? ever since we started hanging out at the playground/clubhouse childishly! ;))
Haha, happy holidays!

/edit

This is why Andrea's such a good friend to have. I miss the times we used to like powerpuff girls and everything! :)

Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
so i know that i have to love my neighbor so i took that to heart and whenever she walked past, i would smile at her
gillian says:
:)
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
really!
gillian says:
yeah i know really
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
anw, she finally gaqve a me a HUGE smile that day
gillian says:
that's really good
gillian says:
i'm gonna LEARN from you, andrea!
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
that really happy smile
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
yes, now im a role model
gillian says:
yep, of mine
gillian says:
:)
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
so im applying that principle to ___ now
gillian says:
we have to keep improving in character, and i'm sure i'm getting all the vibes from you man! ;)
gillian says:
anyway, yes smiling's the best! i make it a point to smile to everybody actually
gillian says:
as long as you try, God sees your effort :D in trying to love everyone else like He loves us
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
thanks zhi!
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
im trying to be a good person now
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
i just came ack from this place called campus crusade
gillian says:
oh, campus crusade!
gillian says:
familiar
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
Its REALLY REALLY good. a christian book store and fromnow to nov 8 theres a 30% storewide sale
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
you must must go
gillian says:
OH OKAY YAY THANKS
gillian says:
haha i know that place
gillian says:
my dad mentioned it before, he's a very christian-y person now
Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
its now at yellow pages
gillian says:
so i'm influenced
gillian says:
:)
gillian says:
alright, thanks for the recommendation!


Andrea/unexpected but not unwelcomed says:
now im like an Aunt Advice or something

Yes, you are! Thanks alot, it's very comforting to know that there's someone there for you. ;)



Thank you Lord,

When You found me, my whole world changed, I'm redeemed by your life
Let the earth say You are freedom
I'm not ashamed of the gospel Lord
Your power, your Love has saved my soul
And now I'm alive
from Hillsong's I'm Not Ashamed





Zhixin -亲爱的aunty Zhixin! Even though we've been in the same class for 3 full years, I haven't been as close to you as I am now, but I'm glad I did approach you man. You're really funny when you're aunty. I'm glad you don't take any offence at all, instead enjoy allll our company, even if we say that of you. :P Pizza hut, (just looking at you doing) Kumon math, reciting my chinese oral speech, chatting about the class and all, it's been very enjoyable. You're much closer to Petra than you are to me, but still, yay, thanks for being such a funny girl, Zhixin! :D Alll the BEST at the school you've decided to go to. 加很多很多油! (and abit of 醋 to neutralise all the oil. :P)


Priyanshu - Gautam Priyanshu = GP! like Gillian Peck. Hahaha, Infocomm's been fun with you these 2 years! (though I've been away from it for quite a bit) We've done many many projects together - from the Rajaratnam one, to Lang arts to many others. :D Being very straightforward, you're able to point out people's weaknesses just like *snap* THIS. Although some may not like it, it's just you. Everyone's got their own characters and it's good you're not that easily affected by insults. ;] BUT you fight back sometimes right, tsk tsk. Full geog next year! :)


Anisha - Auntie Jallllla! You're one friendly, funny pal and you've got personality! Hahahaha, I can just tell you your weak point now, so you can improve - you've got to make sure you put in effort in group work, so others wouldn't have to do it all on their own yeah. Of course it's not all the time, but sometimes. :) You click well with everybody, and that's really good, seriously. I think you're probably the only one who does. Have fun with lit and hist! :D


Patricia -
Kimberly -
Venezia -
Carissa -
Nishanti -
Rachel -
Rida -
Sarah -
Jia Yhin -
SHARANYA -
Lina -

(I'll do a little a day okay! ;])

Jess has asked me to move over to xanga. I may if I find the time to. :)