Sharanya Thirugnanasambhandan (I hope I got it right, but it's pronounced like that anyway) makes my day (and others'). Yesterday she was eating some sponge cupcake (from Ms Yang) at the trellies while we were chatting. And she's a messy eater. Now we know that, on top of being blur. :P I love you Shar.
She says she knows I'll blog all these embarrassing moments of her down, just no photos I guess.
I caught them on her phone 'cos my phone was low on battery so I don't have them with me (and since the bluetooth-ing didn't exactly agree with what I was doing...). Shall be in our CC scrapbook when we make one. (:

I was reflecting upon what some people have shared with me the past few days.
Sometimes I find myself in that same situation. Only difference is that I avoid what's meant to be. And it's painful. Thought about it for a very long time last night, and my answer, for God it's worth it. You start to weigh what's more important to you (not anyone else who comes along), and you know it's none but God.

You hear God calling, you do your best, and only your best to connect with God.
And you tell him you believe, you confess, you repent for all your sins and you proclaim
You "(I) will go.”

Things cannot be avoided when they come your way.
If you do, Gillian, that's just irresponsibility on your part.
Buck up, Gi, buck up.

On a lighter note...
We celebrated Deborah's (belated) birthday this morning!
Sharanya's the best boss ever, she forwarded the message to Deborah too, ruining the surprise. In the text, she mentioned (along the lines of) "Please keep this from her". Shar, we love you. :)

I'm gonna miss Chlo, we all are.
Go for it dear! You've got all our support for the upcoming ASEAN tournament.
A pity we can't send you off on Friday!
Way to go, Chloeee!
:D

Things undone.
Stress revealed.
Chinese to study.
Math to practice.
Physics to complete.
Oxbow lakes to be read up on.
N'day gameshow PPT & script to be done.

But in midst of everything,
God is near.



Blogging's a way of destressing for me. Really.
Simple words, big thoughts.

Church 3 days in a row. You see yourself thirsting for God more and more.

Friday was a pretty good day, save the scolding from Mrs Tay.
She did it out of good will though, I'm sure. In any case, it was fun. (:
Got home early after N'day comm meeting, showered and went straight to church with Dad.
Jammed with Aunt Evelyn & Aunty Kim Hwee until pre-service.
I'd say I really enjoyed myself on the keyboards. Sad to say, I'm sure everyone struggles with following our mission by trying to achieve our 'shadow mission' instead. You know you're glorifying and serving God on one hand, yet on the other, you will see good in yourself too - like 'woah, I can actually do this'. But God fights our battles, so this shall be overcome soon. You wait for my good news!

Saturday. Sleep, math (graphic calculators are cool :)), sleep.
Church of Our Saviour's youth service's the best yet. At least what I've experienced myself.
I felt God, I felt the Spirit. It was seriously amazing, my hands being lifted up. Strong force I couldn't push against. That's God yes, He's uplifting you today.
Thanks Amadea! (: I'll be there 20th September Sis.

Today. Church!
Woke up pretty late, I think. Dad came into the room, screamed
"GI! IT'S 8.40 ALREADY. GET UP! STOP SLEEPING!"
Love it when he does, only makes you laugh (and irritated at times).
CD room with Aunt Eve & Eunice as usual, our weekly heart-to-heart talks.
Bilingual with Eunice. Mission month ya, same speaker as Friday. Just that I understood what he said much better this time, wasn't an intepretation by Elder Phua in Hokkien.
And yet, I had to try hard to stay awake. Aye, I've got some soul-searching to do.
Lunch with Lujia! Thanks for the MOS treat, dear! :)
Got booed out of rehearsal, Dad came down from his class (4th floor, I was on the 3rd) 'cos he felt 'led by God' (yes, that's what he said!) to come down to check on the PA system. And yes he saw me at the keyboards, came with arms by his hips, Aunt Eve now giving me that look while I'm in despair, looking in only her direction, avoiding eye contact with Dad. (Here comes Dad, just. "Oi, go and sleep. You only sleep less than 6 hours you know. Go." Slams the door and out of the room he's gone. I'm immune to it, I'm not sure if that's a good thing though. Probably not.)
I'm learning new Hokkien songs every week, they're really nice you know! Take some time to learn them. Say, the worship ones like '亲近主'.
("Draw near to God and he will draw near to you." James 4:8a)

Haaa, and then after getting chased out, the angel in me told me to take the bus, but the devil in me tempted me to take a cab. Now, you do the calculations - how much money can I save if I listened to the angel? 45 cents x 2 VS $13.
Yep, and so I did. Missed a 48 though. Look what satan does.
So I took a 966. AND AGAIN he distracted me with notices that Installation rehearsal has been changed back to tomorrow, making me think I missed the right bus stop. I didn't know 966 goes past Kallang Basin Complex (or something like that). Man, was I scared.

Listen to the angels. Listen to God speak.

(Reserved for founder's day photos! Blackmail, blackmail)

Lord I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory



http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=c975d005cd2c4d261f7f

God gives, God takes. God's name be ever blessed.
Job 1:21b

For record: Yesterday, Kezia chased after me with a broom, because I filmed her sweeping the floor outside 1H. All the way till the computer labs where Ms Kek saw me lying down on the floor vibrating. She went "Gillian, what are you doing? Why are you laughing so crazily on the floor? Go and do your work! So much time ah." Along those lines. So thank you junior, albeit stalkerish.




There are now no doubts I'm stressed.
Haven't felt this way in a long time!

I'm gonna have to find a way to destress.
Never thought July would be this bad for me.
I'll be okay, yes yes.

I need you Jesus.
I need you.

P.S. CAR(MEN) AND I ARE FATED TO MEET. Popular & NTUC @ BTP, third time this year!
Love you favourite senior cum awesome cool fun ex traffic partner (how hard is it to say this at one shot!) :)

Beautiful.
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
Matthew 6:34

Why else am I worrying? Nothing to worry about, Gi, nothing.

DC was awesomely fun today.
The girls were made to do alot of work
and they didn't really complain. :)

Haaaah, Ivfen & Salad's right.
I'm gonna get some sleep now.

Everyone seems to be falling sick.
Take care bosses (Eva & Sharanya), Laura, Nyam, Benn, Becky, Chloe and all!
You guys look really drained, so exhausted. Get rest after RYC (tho' there's PI & teacher's day after that) ya, promise!

RYC tomorrow and saturday! Yay :D
Church tomorrow night & sunday!
Time to go practise piano.

"Absolut Andrea says:
just go: BARIS SEDIA.
Absolut Andrea says:
bar-ris. se-di-ya
Absolut Andrea says:
you sounded unserious
Absolut Andrea says:
remember be calm, cool, confident, cheery and composed"
Tips for everybody when speaking in front of a large crowd.

I should try sleeping earlier and start QT earlier,
just so I won't be tempted to sleep in between it.
God, I need to finish my prayers and be focused, so help me.

"Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Psalm 37:4

Geog LORMS graded assignment tomorrow,
haven't touched notes at all yet.
I love you floods and droughts.
I love you floods and droughts.
I love you floods and droughts.

About 80 days to exams.
11 weeks. Angie & I aren't scary, we just know we have to start working hard.
That's a really short time.

Weird but true.
I'm gonna practice saying 'baris sedia' and 'baris senangdiri', and the pledge, many times.
Gooo Laura! You'll do fine really.

Everyone's so busy and stressed out now.
Rely on God. Pray and find rest in Him.
We really need it. (:

Seems like my blazer's gonna be put to good use after all.
:D

We wanna see Jesus lifted high
a banner that flies across this land

Time really flies.

We will do our best,
We will serve with love,
We will walk with God.

The cheer by Sec 3 PB '08. Seems as though it's been so long since Heroes.
I miss march camp!
Really thought I should repost that.
It's not just in serving the school, but in everything we do.
Just gotta do it to the best of our abilities, in and with love and for God.

Good motivation for me so hope it is for you too!

I'm really gonna miss the sec fours.
Maybe we'll be shedding a lot of tears.
The most heartening thing is, it doesn't mean we'll never be in contact,
it just means we'll not be seeing each other as much.
Just stay in touch okay my lovely dear seniors!
Always praying for all you who have been really good to me.
Hard to describe in words, but I know we all feel it.

Live by faith, grow strong in God,
study hard, press on, press in, keep loving and
keep smiling.
Live by that. At least that's what I do.
(:

note to self; to do
1. n'day programme proposal
2. ss file
3. math trigo identities revision ws
4. amath trigo ws 7
5. sec 4 farewell :(
6. installation: march-out, position outside door, standing positions towards bamboo courtyard
7. photocopy amath rev guidebook for CAR
8. floods/droughts notes
9. geog. pairwork (ange!)
10. pack acids/bases and salts assgt

"I LOVE YOU!"
in all the languages you may know.

Sitting outside of class, seemingly emo-ing, with Angie and Clare is really fun.
We rock and stone. :D And have wonderful conversations with each other.

So many teachers missing from school this week it's making me lazy.
I owe Mr Seow an SS file, shall get down to it soon.
Hmm, so much for being the SS rep.

In any case, some things people tell me are really overwhelming.
My dad laughed away when I told him. Amazing!
It's k, probably a way to bring fun into the family, yes?

I realised to continue to motivate and influence others to work hard,
I gotta be an example myself. I don't see myself there, do I?
Time to do something about it! Will start off by counting down to EOYs & chinese written papers.
I beg to differ when Rida etc. say I stress myself out more when I write long to-do lists in my diary.
It's what busy people do :P Haha, just kidding. I'm pretty absent-minded, always hit with short term memory loss (everyone can vouch for this) so I really need to write every single detail down.

I'm so tired all the time. Bad, bad, bad. Shall aim to stop work at 11.30 every night & sleep by 12 no matter what. Mm, that works! But you just know when you're really relying on God, everything everyday.

O's chinese listening compre today.
Thank you monster (Si Rui) for leading the prayer before it this afternoon!
You're so dear to us you little monster. (Okay, maybe not so little)
The symphony ie. classical music on Symphony 92.4 is brilliant!
Almost fell asleep half way through. :D

I don't like the feeling when I feel that God seems so 'distant' when it's the exact opposite.
It seems as though he's really already a part of me, that I no longer
need to pray to feel the Holy Spirit or to talk about him to feel him. He's just here and somewhere
and I'm not used to it. I will soon. Yes yes.
Like Si Rui said, 'let everything we do glorify Your name'.

Yay, last week was really an eventful week.

(HAHA ISAAC PECK JUST RAN INTO THE ROOM AND SCREAMED 'I KNEW IT! IT'S EITHER I'M A GENIUS OR YOU TWO ARE JUST TOO PREDICTABLE.' on the fact that Dad's on the PC & I'm on the macbook. 'Can you let me play for a while?' with his puppy eyes. Mmhmm. What would one do without this fatty who pushes the door hard and screams at you?)

I'm looking forward to Friday again! I love fridays. Church.
And sundays. And maybe Saturday, I'm having dinner out with Mum! (:

Nai Nai's gone to England for 3 months again.
I'm gonna feel so empty when I don't see her lying on the sofa watching TV when I get back home,
exhausted. No saying hello to her while trying hard to smile (when I'm really too tired). Walking into the storeroom & throwing my socks there, there won't be someone to scold me for throwing them for 3 months!
Hah, yes you get my point.

Been long since I posted such a long 'piece of text', and being either random, or boring.
To say the least.

I'm lovin' it (life).
(C'mon, sue me for using the copyright slogan, hahaha!
Just kidding.)

Ohhh, okay just realised I forgot to get stuff for sec four farewell tomorrow.
Time for me to go out and brace the rain.

Jesus is the answer to everything. Really.
:D


Amazing.

Crying out. Crying it out.
Crying out to you God.
Here I am standing, proclaiming
'God speak to me. Your servant is here'
I don't just want to hear you Lord, I want to listen to you speak.

I know You'll come.

Absolutely in need of more sleep.



Find rest my soul,
in Christ alone.




Drama night later with Gerou!
GO RIDA, 3G LOVES YOU.
(HAHA. For the daily sexual influences?)

Secretariat 0708!

Gonna miss them :(

Lydia, Claire, Kendra, Celestial, Eunice and Grace.

I love our PB.

Jesus, you're winning all my battles.

Revival, revelation, release.
Oh God. Revelation, revelation, revelation.

Joined bilingual service for the first time today with Eunice! and it's really not bad!
Worshipping God in different languages (I'm not even talking about Hokkien now :P) while learning new chinese words.

I get to play (literally, only cool people (H) will be able to hear) with the keyboard this friday night for Hokkien Service. Privilege in itself even if it's just playing! For God yes.

Worthy is the lamb.

'cos when we seek You
we find strength to face the day!

HAPPY YOUTH DAY Y'ALL.



"Ask and it will be given unto you, seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you".
Matthew 7:7
Delight yourselves in the Lord today (and everyday).
God, you know my desires.

Oral tomorrow. I really really don't know what to expect.
But I cannot worry. I shall not fear. Yes yes.
Holy Spirit, lead me. Distinction, merit, pass or fail, it's all in your hands Lord.

CC0809, we're in this together.
I love my CC! (:

Lift the heaviness of our souls.
Lift us up on wings like eagles.

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all"

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small
Been listening to this over and over again.
No gift is too small...

Your touch.
Thank you God, thank you God.
Saviour, Solution, Shelter.

The feeling's overwhelming. How tears are shed just like that.
My eyes are on you Jesus. Just you.
I recall talking to my dad about crying,
"Dad, in the past, when I thought of the separation of you and mum, I'd cry the most and most easily. Now, I can cry just like that, once I think of what Jesus did for us."
Amazing ain't it? Of course it is.

PEARLYN'S STORY: HEADLINES OF THE DAY!

my SUCCESS STORY: 592 Jellybeans

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:00:51 PM)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

gillian passion says: (9:00:59 PM)

HAHAHA

gillian passion says: (9:01:34 PM)

yeah, amazing how you got it exactly!

Hahaha was really shocked it was someone I know. but, was fun aye?

i guessed 392. just 200 short,just 200.... :P

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:02 PM)

HAHAHHA

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:06 PM)

xDDD

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:09 PM)

HAHAH YEA

gillian passion says: (9:02:09 PM)

:P

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:10 PM)

the amazing things are

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:22 PM)

1) it's EXACTLY. like not even 590 or 600, but 592! what an odd number

gillian passion says: (9:02:25 PM)

God wanted you to have the jellybeans peaaaaar!

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:39 PM)

2) that was the ONLY slip of paper that I properly guessed. the others were totally unrealistic and random like 1 or one million

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:42 PM)

=DD

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:48 PM)

Jellybeans get me high :D

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:49 PM)

HAHAHA

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (9:02:56 PM)

I think God wanted me to cheer up :)

Here's something else.

What would have happened if 'Gillian' wasn't pronounced as 'Jillian' but 'GILL-ian'? :P

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:22:35 PM)

jack and jill

gillian passion says: (10:22:35 PM)

hahahha

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:22:36 PM)

gillian

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:22:38 PM)

AHHAHAHAHAH

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:22:41 PM)

I THOUGHT ITS COMMON SENSE!!!

gillian passion says: (10:22:46 PM)

HAHAHAFUNNNY

gillian passion says: (10:22:46 PM)

:D

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:22:49 PM)

XDDD

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:22:52 PM)

it is!!

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:22:57 PM)

like who's called GILL(fish)-ian

gillian passion says: (10:23:02 PM)

HAHHAHAHA

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:07 PM)

REALLY WHAT!

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:08 PM)

D;

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:13 PM)

That's like being called

gillian passion says: (10:23:13 PM)

i had a birthday party in macs in p2

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:16 PM)

Oesaphaguslyn

gillian passion says: (10:23:23 PM)

the person called me gill(the fish)-ian (:

gillian passion says: (10:23:27 PM)

so it's possible.

gillian passion says: (10:23:27 PM)

really.

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:28 PM)

LOL

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:31 PM)

AAHA

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:32 PM)

oesaphaguslyn!

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:37 PM)

like you know those things on a human!

(: Lift my hands and pray, "everyone needs a lie to make them feel better" - gabchen, ♥ says: (10:23:38 PM)

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHa

Anyhow, back to minutes, english and math.

National Day celebrations are gonna rock 'cos I'm in it. HAHA.

(Daphy, Claud Ong, Grace Cheah, Grace Loke, Jia Ying, Cherry, Dora, Aly, Denise!)

:D

God, continue to do your work within us.
Great productions worth watching:
http://www.flywheelthemovie.com/
http://www.facingthegiants.com/home.php