-meant to be posted on the 5/8

it's always so coincidental that im listening to josh groban's you raise me up when im blogging(: i suppose it's just a reminder about what my family has done for me.

hah so here's my new skin. enables me to be able to see my tagboard on the new comp :) haha. indeeed, i am losing abit of my control over certain things.

my life's royally screwed. i dont know whether it's just the choices i made or what that triggers this thought in me. but indeed, im always wondering why im here, even living? why am i me? why cant i be leading someone else's life? why cant i just.. give up?
i know this isn't a thought i should hold, but oh well.

im really happy with my family and friends. im just unhappy with myself.. i get myself stuck in situations. maybe not obvious ones. but i just hate myself. i hate my attitude. i dont know.. this really shows that there's some problem with me. ha-ha.

and i have no idea why i just said all those.. but all right, enough about that. :p

oh wait a minute. what did i do? hahahaaaaa. oh science centre in the morning. hah the playing fields are cool. on glass table somemore :x and 'dear' maddie's robot kept breaking once i got down the platform :p good try anywayy :D hahaaaa. but it was quite fun. with sherri, maddie, marian, yixin, chantal and ting yan. they were the 'more serious and focused' juniors x) haha and yes candy. one tradition we cannot break or whatever the word is =p :
CANDY! :p
sherri's favourite righttt. hehs.
then after that her mum/dad gave me a lift home. and then i continued packing my room. then.. studied for math. haha. and then yesss. i went out with my grandma(: to exchange the ND hang ten shirts for smaller sizes. at lot 1. hahh then ate dinner. yong tau foo :D yeah that was about it. got home and played maple for awhile :p slept abt 12 plus? yeah around there. and yes i regret not following my dad to FOP instead. he said it was very niceeee. anyway, i shall wait till next year. hahas.


:D