it's time I clear the mess. It's hard when people tell you something you're aware of yet you just can't give yourself away. Ironically, people can tell. But it's decided and resolved. Praise and thank God.

We sang the desert song during chapel today. Hit me right at my weakest. My God is the God who provides, firm on His promise I'll stand; I know I'm filled to be emptied again, but what less than bringing him praise can I offer? God accepts everything you offer up to him. He lifts your struggles.

Never stop believing in yourself, never ever. :)



In the midst of all the unsettledness, I must sort my emotions out...
Can't get any more cavalier than this, mm. Terrible mood swings get the better of you and people are worried. You feel bad but you don't understand why you're experiencing this either. Your body not being able to recognise itself now that it's changed, in conflict with the mind and soul? Only God knows why. And I won't do this alone, 'cos I can only do it with His strength, amen. I think the waves of optimism and pessimism are highly evident, disturbs me.