True I'm torn, broken and empty it's true I'm torn between being pessimistic and optimistic. Excruciated by expectations yet I can't lose sight of hope and faith, can't allow others to see how vulnerable I may be. No one else understands these struggles. It's true when they say sometimes we bleed just to know we're alive but let me not go on that track. Lurking in this darkness, where has light gone? Tormented, frustrations arise but at times am calmed to know the peace of God has been with me since I've been found in him (and forever more). A voice that calls out, tells me to surrender. Giving up control, leaving behind personal agendas, I surrender to my hope, whom I have absolute faith in. Having had insincerity in giving glory to you God, I ask for your forgiveness and I thank you that I've been forgiven because Jesus you were forsaken. In the midst of weakness, God you are strong. Insecurities, inhibitions, burdens lifted; love, light and fear, super sized. I believe, I believe.


We all need a break from this world. Cruelty of life here on earth doesn't mean we don't deserve to relax, enjoy nature, appreciate God's wonderful works etc. Stop and reflect; taking time off, setting aside distractions, being constantly reminded of his love...

Helplessness floods, seeing how you're suffering
just wanna make you feel better whenever
Holding a strong front isn't easy, yet you do
Admiration you believe you don't deserve you've got
Now draw strength from whom gives you all that you need