So its true they say.
Generation gap, period.
Gross awkwardness being around home.
He's got the right to be pissed and I don't deserve to dwell upon it.
Why am I fretting over my relationship with a father I'm not respecting?
I'm such a terrible daughter, argh.

It definitely sucks to know you're always overcome by waves of negativity and that there's a tendency for your temperament to take over once you 'walk away'.
What brutality. Learning lessons the hard way, having to go thru' life threatening situations, and bearing severe consequences of my own actions. Facing the world, I know there're many things I can't hide. People may notice there's something wrong with you, they may be caring, and concerned about you, enough to approach you but all those don't matter if you aren't gonna take it to heart. Are you gonna reject their kindness and go on with your current ways of life which aren't the best for you, while putting on a front to appreciate their kind thoughts or are you gonna carefully think thru' what they say or do for you, truly recognising the full worth of what love these people are showering upon you? I prayerfully hope it's the latter.

Somehow I hang on, get by. My prayers are short, But God I offer up my heart and take all of me today I pray. because I trust that the Holy Spirit takes all these thoughts, emotions, and inarticulate frustrations to you.
'cause I may be dying inside, I just wanna let go and know that I'll be alright