Discipline's it. Mine has long gone poof, ugh. I wonder what I'll really feel when I see D7s-F9s on my report card for physics, HCL and combined? For now, I've resolved to focus on improving/excelling the maths, chem, bio, geog and english and for now I say I won't feel too bad about failures for the rest. That's for now.
"But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us." 2 Cor 4:7 We don't know what the future holds, but we know who holds the future. And that's all there is to it.

Surrender's the heartbeat of peace.
"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:28-31

How many of us bear the marks of our independence—our wanting to lean on our own strength until, sometimes broken, defeated, and disappointed, we learn to depend on God's strength instead of our own? I for one have...but I've realised how foolish I was. Why depend on humans who are small in thoughts and ways, rather than looking to God, the Almighty? "It's very often people who are not particularly gifted, nor highly trained, nor learned in man's wisdom that God is able to do the most with. Because they are humble, emptied of self, weak in themselves, and depend on God for strength, He can work through them. He supplements such weakness with His strength, and they become truly strong." Mhm, it's true. We have hope in Him. "For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Cor 12:10

Now the suns shining bright
And it just wont set
'Cause your love is a light and it lights my step
My heart is amazed every day to the next
Your joy overtakes and i cant forget about it