Exams, 14 days. (I need to do well...hmm, DSA?)

Nobody is not fearful. (I got this double negative right, right? paranoia setting in!)

Dad pointed out something that we often forget in the midst of busyness, stress and whatnot: Even when we're not ready, the One above is. It's very often that I find myself relying on my own strength, forgetting that it's only when I recognise my weaknesses that I'll be strong, for real - it isn't automatic I pray and hope in every circumstance and this is true to my current state. And I'm sure many identify with this too.

Yes, we want to be better than who we are now. Yes, we want to be better than others whom you're envious of. Yes, we want to be the best. But what's best? Do we ever become the best? Well, no because we're always seeking victory, wanting more than we've had. Having an unquenchable thirst for victory, I've realised I'm never quite contented with what I achieve. Nothing satisfies me, at least never fully.

What's stopping me? The frequently recurring inability of my soul to find rest. Not surrendering = no peace = dissatisfaction, discontentment = unhappiness = weariness and no drive = losing sight of purpose = can't be bothered to seek peace any longer. Vicious cycle... My cavalier attitude is bothering me, very very much.

But y'know I guess eventually, it's not what we feel now that matters, it's how we manage the feelings. I'm stressed beyond belief but perhaps, it's in His will that I'll start working well under pressure unlike in the past. And also in His plan for me to learn to be stubborn in the things I believe, stubborn in persevering 'til I attain my goals even tho' there are thousand reasons to give up - especially when we try so hard and still aren't 'good enough' for ourselves or others.

I've decided though, that I'll take heart in the very fact that the One above is ready, ready to bring me thru' every storm, and you should too.
"but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" isaiah 40:31. I'm always heartened by God's Word; only in verses do I find true comfort my soul longs for.

And thanks to my dearest God-sent friends for their unending support and encouragement. :)

"Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God's." 2 Chronicles 20:15

my eyes feast on Your works,
my heart amazed everyday to the next