I'm disgusted! Hence the 'lol'. Even though shouldn't be getting this affected by my grades, tell me, anw, who drops 4 grades on average? Gross. But...It does strike me now that God's telling me something. No healthy mind with no healthy body. Thank God for adulto and her reminders.

I will settle with being more hardworking, fat and healthy and make sure I do better from now onwards. I will not compare myself with others, knowing God made me special like everyone else. I will not entertain negative thoughts because there's much more to life than that. And I will believe... Keep praying Gillian.

Here I am
at Your feet
Crying out to You
Draw me near,
hold me close
Lord I wait on You
For You're my greatest love
You're my comforter and strength
You're the first
You're the last
You're my guiding light
I will run
I will soar
on eagle's wings
as I wait on You Lord
My strength is restored
Fix my eyes on You Jesus,
as I run this race
Help me fight
this fight of faith

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Flipped open my devotional and God spoke to me:
"How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O Lord my God." (Psalm 13:2-3) Perhaps, it's about me not looking to God rather than the other way round as stated here, but I must believe and always remember that the One in me is greater than everything else, the greatest of all. I will run the race.

"You must give yourself a chance to prove that you can...don't lose hope."