(Dad, I know you read what I write here, but you shouldn't...please don't.)
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life now's all about:
hoping, hoping, hoping
wanting to understand more yet not knowing how to
learning to deal with unreciprocated help, care (no results)
being enervated and hardly too stressed
dreaming of getting the 9A1s,
bringing pride, but more importantly glory to Him
wishing things would be better for people
clinging onto things unseen, the impossible
having Jeremiah 33:3 placed in my way 5 times in 3 days
trying hard to let go, because I don't want to
His strength that sustains
His grace that provides
Him being faithful
Him.

yea, I confuse people. sometimes I do the same to myself. when you're alone for too long, the tendency to be messed up and more cynical grows. digging up the past can be good and bad...realising you've grown up too fast and missed out on too much while you were younger makes you want to turn back time. it does, because the future's so uncertain. to me. but fear..."fear's just being frightened easily and running away" and if anything, being a chicken's the last thing I'd like to be.

oh yes, Jeremiah 33:3's "Call to Me and I will answer you; and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." great promises, He keeps them. (1 cor 1:20a)
intimacy with God translates into the tasting of His goodness everyday