tragedy strikes when we don't dream at all
Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 6:16 PM
I wanna go to eastern europe. I wanna go back to US with the same group of people (clare/maddy/grace/mill/fern/claudia/zeeie/abi/ms ng/ms ho etc). I wanna visit New Zealand (land of wonder...) I wanna go to Japan and Korea again. I wanna go to Switzerlandddd. I wanna go to Bangkok (to visit Mill and shop). I just wanna be out of town and immerse in the beauty of nature. vast blue skies, large green fields - y'know, the kind with the golfcourse kind of grass. beautiful lakes.
but these are wants. and wants are never-ending, infinite. we probably need to grow to be content of all that we have, and believe what we have is enough. we have all we need and we should stop expecting so much from the world. we do, though, need to keep expecting more from God, because He will continue to provide, provide more than we ever ask for and imagine.
is it always that easy to believe what we speak of tho'? nah. but if we have no choice but to keep telling ourselves such things for a long enough period of time, we might as well start trusting we're speaking the truth, cause then we know hope's in our hands. the ghosts that haunt you will be in your control...and you begin to look at the good side of things. seeing how having higher hopes/expectations and lower contentment drives us to fall even harder, we must try to remember that to dwell on failures, no good's gonna come upon us. (wouldn't even deny that it's so much harder convincing ourselves that we're successful and worthy/deserving of praise, than to settle with lowly judgements and pessimistic viewpoints. it's pretty natural, once you grow up having to be critical of everything, you become anal about all sorts of things and such values cultivated in you brings about less happiness - logic and happiness never agree with each other)
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y'know, think I've been missing out on the key point of sharing the gospel this whole time. I really enjoyed today's sermon, short and sweet but put across a powerful message. to mission is to be a witness and vessel of God's love, and we must never forget to really love the people with the love of God that never ends. but to spread the gospel with love is the greatest challenge...cause it's always harder to act on such things than to speak of such things. for instance, we could invite a friend to a service, give him/her a devotional/tract and think it's sufficient - but we're wrong. because if we think our job stops there and that's all we do, then we aren't showing the love that God wants us to show. to really care and let the other party feel your sincerity and love is important, and that means to follow thru' with the person, making sure s/he forms a relationship with the Lord, and praying for him/her incessantly. we should love people even if they don't know us (e.g. mere acquaintances) and even if they aren't exactly love-worthy, because to bless them is exactly how we should walk in His will...we should love the people, even if they're troublemakers, difficult to deal with, resistant to christianity, because to 'speak the truth in love' shouldn't be done to a selected few, but to everyone that crosses our paths. if the person is a hard-to-crack nut, extremely blinded, the more we should be convicted to reach out to him/her 'cause that's how we'll become more and more like Jesus - but no, this isn't what I've been doing. I've been moaning when I see friends tearing up bible verses, insulting God, criticising others for reading the bible, I've been sad that so many people around me don't know the Lord, or have backslid...rather than pushing my way thru', being firm on my stand and sharing His love nonetheless despite their stubbornness. I've focussed so much on personal issues, issues of inferiority, loneliness, jealousy/envy and whatnot, forgetting the key purpose of being a Christian - working out for God, who's in the business of saving souls. I'm probably not the only one...but it's never too late to start, 'cause God knows it's difficult and painful. Jesus experienced it himself...I love God for his faithfulness and his purpose, his timing, his plans, his acts of placing people in my life to teach me such things, to understand Him more, to help me thru' trials, reminding me that Jesus calms every storm in my heart etc. every tomorrow'll be better.