YPM Camp '09 from the inside out!
we fall short of the glory of God, so we don't steal any of which belongs to Him.
it was really really really really awesome.
everything about it. His presence, messages, the people, the games, the altar calls, the food.
:)

okay, busy days ahead. but with things that aren't all that fulfilling...
yet again, there's a purpose for everything. even lazing around. it gives rest, yeah?
some day soon I'll sort my new year resolutions out. those are important. it's gonna be another new year of blessing and faithfulness (His, mine, others').

grans and xiao gu/uncle eric have gone to view some houses...does it mean I'm finally moving out? we'll see if God allows the en bloc of this pretty condo. haha.
right now, I'm trying to fill my heart with other things that won't cause me to lose anymore sleep at night. sometimes you think of people you shouldn't, sometimes you think of people you can, you love subconsciously, and the body responses weirdly. tossing and turning. waking up 5 times isn't nice at all.

there's something I need to work on with no delay tho'. friendships that tear because of an unknown force - it's like one-sided and the other party (alright, that's me) has no idea why there's now an invisible barrier. people can build us up or tear us down when we're 'only human'. but we aren't...we've got the Lord's strength and it's enough. He turns bad into good anyway. I'll get thru' this 'cause in life, this' merely a trivial challenge, tho' important.

thank God for mom who seems to be in the business of getting me new phones and paying my phone bills - if it makes her feel better that she can't daily care for me. manually copying contacts (got to do some housekeeping, yay!) and keeping a record of messages I've saved in my old phone has been pretty time-consuming. but the messages and people mean alot to me...while I was at it, I looked back thru 2009. too rough, but God placed so many people in my life too who always tried to reach out to me (I'm sorry when I didn't respond kindly).
in mg, I've met lots of amazing people, 3 of which are clare, miss ng and ms ho. they are the few who are extremely busy but cope very very well! that spirit of determination and discpline was highly motivating. :) haha.
in church, I've met lots of new friends my age. now I feel I have a life. the life God gave, a whole life 'cause He came to give us an abundant life, life to the fullest.