last night...: "i think everyone should have abit of childishness(?) in them. makes life more cheery" mm yeah, true. never thought about that! I like hearing such new perspectives.

this morning I got up at seven automatically. it's not very nice to be unable to sleep tho'. but still, thank God for that 'cause I decided it was a nice breezy peaceful morning to go downstairs by the poolside to do quiet time. first time I've done a thanksgiving prayer for that long. there're really too many good and bad things to thank Him for, at least for this year. in fact, it's so hard to even think about what happened in the beginning of the year, 'cause it didn't seem so real after all (self-destruction and whatnot). reflected upon and rewrote the key things learnt during ypm camp for two hours...it's been eons since I last spent that much time with Him alone. while at it, realised it's important to give closure to issues that plagued me through the year and actually pen down what I want to do next year. 2009 has changed me alot...I think I can be more resolved and disciplined from now onwards. I think I can. and that's good enough, it's enough for Him to do His work in me because I'm willing to give myself a chance. will you give yourself a chance too? to prove you can do greater things? 'cause it's His will to help you achieve your best/what's THE BEST for you.

:)

p.s. the next time you see me anywhere, just please I beg of you, remind me to sit myself down at my table and clear my secondary school work up? thanks man. hahaha