it's not about perfection but direction. this year, I'm gonna aim to live a pure life. "it's not about where you have been, but where you can go." we all deal with different things - but we definitely deal with SOMETHING, so to live a pure life, I'll do my best to be honest with myself and admit what exactly it is that I'm dealing with. without admitting the issues, it isn't gonna be easy moving on and changing (letting God change me). guess it's important to remember God doesn't expect us to be perfect. we just need to make sure we're willing to give of ourselves, without reservation, to Him to work in us. life's short, and to make it count, I want to do things that would count in His Kingdom. to lead an outstanding life as Christian, to be different, to not be afraid of being shamed and mocked at for being 'weird' and 'obsessed with God' (which by the way, I need to remember to release the hurt of mom saying this of me), to glorify His Name are lofty desires. but they aren't impossible. I just know it. you'll be surprised at how strange and unfamiliar 2010 will be, so will I 'cause we don't know what tomorrow holds. we'll leave that to the Lord.
"seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well." (matt 6:33)

You thought of us before the world began to breathe
You knew our names before we came to be
You saw the very day we fall away from You
and how desperately we need to be redeemed

Lord Jesus
come lead us
we're desperate for Your touch

Oh great and mighty one
with one desire we come
that You would reign that You would reign in us
we're offering up our lives
a living sacrifice
that You would reign that You would reign in us

Spirit of the living God fall fresh again
come search our hearts and purify our lives
we need Your perfect love we need Your discipline
we're lost unless You guide us with Your light

Lord Jesus
come lead us
we're desperate for Your touch

Oh great and mighty one
with one desire we come
that You would reign that You would reign in us
we're offering up our lives
a living sacrifice
that You would reign that You would reign in us

we cry out for Your life to revive us cry out
for Your love to define us cry out
for Your mercy to keep us
blameless until You return

oh great and mighty one
with one desire we come
that You would reign that You would reign in us
we're offering up our lives
a living sacrifice
that You would reign that You would reign in us
[2 x]

You would reign in us

So reign please reign in us
come purify our hearts
we need Your touch
come cleanse us like a flood
and send us out
so the world may know You reign You reign in us
[3 x]

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collecting os results soon! I refuse to speculate or think about it - hahaha, so much for not being in denial. but anyhow, let's wait in great anticipation...let our worries not cloud the hope of doing as well as we long to. let us not lose sight that His thoughts are higher than ours, His ways are higher than ours (isaiah 55:8). let us not forget that no matter how we do, whichever educational institution (or work field) we end up in, God has a greater purpose for us. just believe it with all your heart and peace will fill it. with all your soul trust that everything'll turn out fine. :)

right now, I'm just preparing myself for the nostalgia that'll rush into me as I walk into school tomorrow. it feels kinda weird not having to return to school today. I'm so detached from doing work, gaining knowledge/learning from textbooks and studying it sucks. shucks! but okay, no fear. will definitely be able to adjust quickly enough right? when jc starts 28th jan. mmm.

hahaha, looking thru' my archives is really entertaining. there were times I was acting mature and other times I was seriously immature. it's so amusing...but the process reminds me of His faithfulness. He never let go.