(can't blog properly...but I promise I'll do a good reflective post soon because it's necessary and I really need to dwell on His Word like I used to again.)

God is always faithful. working in mysterious ways. though I cannot see what it is He wants for me, I know He'll lead me in paths of righteousness and bring me through to a whole new dimension - where He can use me. cause right now, I'm really tired. and I need to stop saying depressing things. and stop thinking depressing things. it's tough having to push myself during trainings, it's terribly hard being unable to go on anymore (your muscles give way...); it's awfully tough having to go for every single class/lecture well-prepared, but worse to know despite having the intention of being a hardworking good ready student, I'm not achieving those plans; it's grossly difficult to have a constant positive outlook on life, even though He's promised us good (God allows everything to work for GOOD). but nauh, nothing I go through, nothing we ever go through can be as painful as what Jesus had gone through before the crucifixion, as God having to bear the sight and thought of His beloved son dying to redeem every single person.

persevere. joy is eternal while happiness is temporary. trading sorrows in for joy!