the knowledge of God has indeed brought me through many seasons of life. the love of God has indeed tossed out every single hurt and speck of unforgiveness in my heart. the hope of God has indeed given me strength to overcome every hurdle. the grace of God has indeed blessed me over all these years, more than I can ever imagine. the faithfulness of God has indeed given me life - because even when I fail Him, He never fails me.

today, I will run to You came to mind. haven't heard or sung it in ages; the last time was some mg chapel (of which I MISS VERY DEARLY!). no matter how many times I hear such songs, the lyrics never fail to speak to me - that's why I always thank God for such talents and for His love for the undeserving, to actually care about all of us and have relationships with us (and hence the birth of lyrics that bless His Name). hope they speak to you too :) go have a listen on youtube!

Your eye is on the sparrow
and Your hand, it comforts me
from the ends of the earth to the depth of my heart
let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
as angels understand
for Your glory, may You draw all men
as Your love and grace demand

and I will run to You
to Your words of truth
not by might, not by power
but by the spirit of God
yes I will run the race
'till I see Your face
oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

children's min creative arts camp & annual bible camp were more than awesome. glory of the Lord revealed...filling of the Holy Spirit, reassured faith in a very very real God, heart knowledge that I am set apart for Him (joshua 3:5 "joshua told the people, 'consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you'."), fellowship with fellow CM teachers/YPMers, getting to know churchies better, fun with children!! think it's a pity I have no drive to share about those on the blog right now. but I promise to do that one of these days - when I'm lazy to do other things and want to really talk about the milestones in my walk with God (or in other words, experiences through which I was transformed for the better, through which my mind was renewed and soul/spirit was refreshed so I can more greatly glorify Him) :)
God is good, all the time. thank God, really, that I can now see bad situations in a new light - they are opportunities for my faith to be tested and His love to overflow in my life & lives of those involved/around me.

"give thanks in all circumstances." it's what God is continually reminding me in this season; this phrase is to be so deeply imprinted in both my heart and mind this season (& for the past half a year). for this, am thankful. 'cause when you thank Him even for the bad things that have happened, and with faith thank Him for what you believe will come to pass, there'll certainly be breakthroughs and you seek comfort in knowing that you've surrendered a situation/problem/dream to Him & it's all in His control (of course it would still be in His hands, even if you don't ask...) i.e. you aren't worrying. ('do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself' matt 6:33)

seriously i'm not the most hardworking student, nor am i the strongest or best canoeist, but will press on and live day by day. revise whatever work I can, train as much as my head pushes me to. and as much as i can be bothered about how lazy or inadequate i am, guess i'd rather not right now because what's the point of always being so burdened about and upset over what you set out to do but don't because of your own flaws/weaknesses? yeah, simply put, I just don't wanna keep dwelling on how much a failure I am anymore. God has ministered through many people, telling me to 'not feel inferior'. think that's what hit me most, 'cause that inferiority complex has never quite left me. it's been cultivated through the years, by how others have judged me or felt about me...

and of late, the desire to study medicine/become a doctor seems to be dwindling. and I wonder why. but yes, dad's right. I should continue to pray for His direction. He'll close every door to studying medicine if He thinks it's not for me...so perhaps I shouldn't think so much too right now? handle CTs first. roar.

on a lighter note, you'll never see a better procrastinator than me!!! (:
heeheeheehee.
all the best for terms/common tests JC kiddos!
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tag replies, mostly overdue (yup, actually have a tagboard!):
tingyannot sure if you're still visiting my blog frequently, but I think you are! i miss you too, thanks so much for upholding me in prayer and stuff whenever (: thinking of you!
tiff! hey tiff, it's been long! catch up soon yeah? so many things have happened...let's allow the fire in all of us to reSPARK ;)
dom hey domxz, thanks :) let God increase in your life okay? all the best for CTs!
ivan hello ivan!
gabrielle hey gabrielleee! d'you have a blog, dear? yup know your brothers! hahaha I was TOTALLY surprised when michael mentioned you! heard you really really study very hard. think I should learn from you! I have no discipline whatsoever, teehee. mhm, that US trip was awesome! but I don't know daniel personally so yup. thank you so much for your well wishes. jiayou with school and cca & all too! see you at YPM. :)
christie HAHAHA HELLO GRANDMA. mhm, thanks for dropping by again then. think I'm less mature now than in the past you know! in the way or things I post at least, hahaha
shi ting hello awesome girl. been a pleasure getting to know you better :)
hansheng tcheh! it's not VERY untaggable is it! anyway I linked you! heh.
jedidah aye aye captain! yes, htht soon. but you know what, team talk was really good that day. see, God guided you through! may His wisdom continue to be upon you :)