when you're doing your best, you have no time to worry about failure (robert hillyer). this quote is written on the front page of my bible, but somehow, I haven't reminded myself of it since Os ended. [this could say something about me not reading the Word hard copy for quite awhile now :/ oh dear.] it really drove me on and served as a good reminder to me to always give my best. I haven't (given my all) at all this whole year in anything/everything and I've been taking failures as final defeats - okay, maybe not so final 'cause i get back up in the end, but still the fall is hard enough. i anticipate failures too, because i don't think i've done the best that i can do, or made the wisest decisions i could probably have. and isn't that the suckiest feeling? when you're already so certain of the results/consequences of your actions - negative ones at that? i'm over those days where i saw myself as a failure, i'd better be. 'cause failure is by large an event, not a person. so don't ever think you're a failure alright. don't walk in my footsteps either, only on hindsight berate yourself for not doing your best in the first place. always do your best. always give God your best. :)

10ish weeks to promos. one last chance to redeem myself.