it's been awhile I must say and I apologise for being MIA. many things have changed since I last posted but one has remained constant - the fact that God is still very part of my life, still who loves me the most, who sustains me day in day out. :)
the best change would really be that I've found that joy that used to always be in me again, and for as long as I'm willing to surrender my life to Him it'll probably stay this way. the holidays have been really really good; God is really good all the time. it's not that there aren't hurdles to cross 'cause life without challenges would probably be very boring, rather it's the choice to see the good in everything and trust in Him to turn any bad circumstance into good. the biggest problem right now's because I'm enjoying myself so much, 've got a feeeling my academics are gonna suffer real bad next year. nonetheless I'll have faith in the Lord to be with me whether or not I study hard (actually, dad says it's more of studying smart than hard and he's right huh) and perform as I should...I believe sometime back I spoke of the As I want by CTs 1. SEEMINGLY IMPOSSIBLE BUT LET'S CLAIM THE PROMISE IN MATT 19:26 THAT WITH HIM ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. hahaha mind you, I'm not being unrealistic because I'm optimistic and neither am I idealistic. lofty goals aren't bad when you keep going back to your humble beginnings and keep Jesus at the centre, no? anyhow, I TOUCHED MY NOTES YESTERDAY AND ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND RESPIRATION NOW. it's better than not starting on any revision before school starts in 2 weeks+ (we must think self-preserving thoughts okay).

on another note, IT'S CHRISTMASSSSS. blessed Christmas everybody. may the love of God overwhelm you this season of giving (and joyful receiving) and be the strength of your heart as you embark on a new year of life (of which poses new challenges) :)

I feel like whoever reads this space deserves to hear more but am not too able to be anymore coherent than this, sorry friends! if there's anything you should take back from actually bother to read about my life here (I do feel honoured about this thank you), I pray/hope it's that living in/with/for God is a very awesome thing and life can actually be really beautiful when you learn to see things from His perspective.